fat ugly crap
i feel like crap. after i'm done with this i'm going to my room and passing out.. blah.
i have so much homework to do too.
i was at the gym today.. the curly haired boy was there. i see him often but i've never talked to him. he's a dork.. well he looks like one anyway, he almost always wears these white shorts with blue flames on them (ANYTHING with flames on it = so stupid) but he's always there, so i figured one day we might become friends or something.. since the people who frequent the gym seem to know each other.. and i've talked to a few already, just friendly gym conversation.
anyway, so he's there using the free weights and so am i, and next to him is this other girl, with the NICEST arms i have ever seen. they weren't bulky, they weren't flabby and they weren't regular (like not fat, but nothing great either) they had definition, and she was using a 10 pound weight like it was nothing. so this kid, this dorky curly blond afroey hair boy - turns to her and say "so are you from around here?" and i'm thinking WTF? i see this kid EVERY DAY, same time, every day. and she is NEVER here. but she shows up once, and he's having conversation with her? and why? becuase she is pretty + has VERY nice arms!!!!! my heart sank. no it really did. not like i was into him, not physically - he's dorky looking. but just the fact that he talked to the prettier girl first.. man it made me upset!! at one point i even heard him ask her if she's training for anything and she goes "no.. i just like to work out" PFT! that's why I work out too! well besides that i'm a huge lard ass ana .. man. it made me so damn upset. i don't know why. he wasn't even good looking, dorky is what he was. and had flame pants, that he wears every day. ugh. stupid boy.
i feel like crap. fat ugly crap.
on the positive side though - i had a great work out and i've had less than 100 cals today (much less than 100) so i'm all set.
stupid skinny pretty girl with perfect arms. i wish i had perfect arms.
i WILL have perfect arms.
i have so much homework to do too.
i was at the gym today.. the curly haired boy was there. i see him often but i've never talked to him. he's a dork.. well he looks like one anyway, he almost always wears these white shorts with blue flames on them (ANYTHING with flames on it = so stupid) but he's always there, so i figured one day we might become friends or something.. since the people who frequent the gym seem to know each other.. and i've talked to a few already, just friendly gym conversation.
anyway, so he's there using the free weights and so am i, and next to him is this other girl, with the NICEST arms i have ever seen. they weren't bulky, they weren't flabby and they weren't regular (like not fat, but nothing great either) they had definition, and she was using a 10 pound weight like it was nothing. so this kid, this dorky curly blond afroey hair boy - turns to her and say "so are you from around here?" and i'm thinking WTF? i see this kid EVERY DAY, same time, every day. and she is NEVER here. but she shows up once, and he's having conversation with her? and why? becuase she is pretty + has VERY nice arms!!!!! my heart sank. no it really did. not like i was into him, not physically - he's dorky looking. but just the fact that he talked to the prettier girl first.. man it made me upset!! at one point i even heard him ask her if she's training for anything and she goes "no.. i just like to work out" PFT! that's why I work out too! well besides that i'm a huge lard ass ana .. man. it made me so damn upset. i don't know why. he wasn't even good looking, dorky is what he was. and had flame pants, that he wears every day. ugh. stupid boy.
i feel like crap. fat ugly crap.
on the positive side though - i had a great work out and i've had less than 100 cals today (much less than 100) so i'm all set.
stupid skinny pretty girl with perfect arms. i wish i had perfect arms.
i WILL have perfect arms.