Chemical Imbalance
Had a half-awake half-asleep dream about this, so I decided to post, as its usually in this state that I can open my third eye or where things that bother me come up as a memory or complicated re-building of situations.
So in elementary school and early high school my mother thought I had ADD. ADD being a chemical imbalance that keeps people from being able to concentrate for a long periods or even short periods of time. They gave me therapy, medication, and even a group meeting kind of thing. And it was ok for a while, I got to bash my dad in front of a therapist kind of person. But I feel like the medication didn't really do anything. I never had problems paying attention, it was all attitude on my part, I got good grades when I wanted, bad grades when I wanted, I did what I wanted, it was not a problem with concentration. I eventually proved this by taking some tests they use that require paying attention. My mother was trying to make excuses for me being either a bad student, or the school system being a horrible environment for me to learn, or a mix of both, but she wanted to believe there was something wrong with me that I could not control, rather than it being purely my intentions.
Now, the revelation of this story. What standards are these chemicals based on? Are they based on the standard 90-110 IQ brains? Is there a chemical difference the higher or lower your IQ gets from the norm? Does being inherently more intelligent or less intelligent than the average count as a chemical imbalance? I find it odd that some people are judged or diagnosed based on the standards, even when the standards don't apply to them. What is normal for one person is not normal for others.
That is one thing I will try to realize now, when I think of others, and when I think of myself.
So in elementary school and early high school my mother thought I had ADD. ADD being a chemical imbalance that keeps people from being able to concentrate for a long periods or even short periods of time. They gave me therapy, medication, and even a group meeting kind of thing. And it was ok for a while, I got to bash my dad in front of a therapist kind of person. But I feel like the medication didn't really do anything. I never had problems paying attention, it was all attitude on my part, I got good grades when I wanted, bad grades when I wanted, I did what I wanted, it was not a problem with concentration. I eventually proved this by taking some tests they use that require paying attention. My mother was trying to make excuses for me being either a bad student, or the school system being a horrible environment for me to learn, or a mix of both, but she wanted to believe there was something wrong with me that I could not control, rather than it being purely my intentions.
Now, the revelation of this story. What standards are these chemicals based on? Are they based on the standard 90-110 IQ brains? Is there a chemical difference the higher or lower your IQ gets from the norm? Does being inherently more intelligent or less intelligent than the average count as a chemical imbalance? I find it odd that some people are judged or diagnosed based on the standards, even when the standards don't apply to them. What is normal for one person is not normal for others.
That is one thing I will try to realize now, when I think of others, and when I think of myself.