TWO GLORIOUS DAYS OF FREEDOM

[xynare]

I wonder if this is what it'll be like when I've moved out. Will it be this liberating? I feel like I don't have to keep going, if I want to I can just sit down for four hours and read a book without huge disruptions. I think all this "Kaylee do this" and "Kaylee do that" every five minutes of my life, is what's sucked all of my creative drive from my body. I used to love reading, drawing, writing, talking to friends, but now I feel like they take up so much time. It's not that they aren't fun. It's not that I don't love them, but if about 6-8 hours of my day are devoted to my grandmother, another 8 to sleep, and another 3-5 to work, where is the time to do stuff for me? especially since I'm usually completely wiped out. I just want to sit in a tub and relax. (It doesn't help that 'grandma time' isn't all in one chunk, which would be something that I could actually happen, but whenever and wherever she feels like. such as 3:00 am when she knows I have work the next morning.) But this is amazing, I only have to clean what i've messed up, and I only have to do what I know needs to be done, not whatever she decides needs to be done.

I've decided I need to get a job that pays some good money so I can live on my own soon.

sorry for the rant, maybe i'll produce something good tomorrow.