she never gives up, she never gives in, she just changes her mind

[xyellowstar]

yep so i just wokeup.. its 900 pm and i was supposed to be reading this GOD DAMN FORSAKEN book that i hate with a passioin more than my life right now. (Which is a whole lot) And every time i start reading it i fall asleep. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. It's impossible to read it i sware. I don't know what i'm gonna do anymore. I really don't. Thank you to people who know i'm saddy waddy and help me. ( Jen, Trish, Nicole, Sam, Vik, HANA for giving me the best and longest advice ever.) Sometimes when you feel your world is going to fall apart, you see people who make you happy. That's what i love about nice people. They always make you happy. Even if they do have to like pretend they are a .. RAPTOR or somehting to do it. Or give me free snapple. Or let me cheat off of them on tests. It's just nice. I feel like a bum and i want to put my face in a pie full of whipped cream and leave it there. Ugh.. COLLEGE. (Slit, Slit) i hate doing it. I LOVE MY MOM shes my savior and she helps me with EVERYTHING i dont know what i'd do without her. ONE thing made me kinda happy today tho. Auditions. Hehehe they were fun and brought back old memories. 'Sept i missed jess davilla so much i could cry. Its not the same wihtout old jessy. I love her with all my hearrrrt... But me, ash and caiti had a "workshop" afterschool which ended up not being a workshop at all. But it was fun anyway. I love them and ash is seriously like my sister. I dont know what id do without her. But yeah that was fun, I was gonna go to smalltown to visit ashley and her new BF and the guys in the boothypoo, but i didnt cause im lazy. i just got gas with julie then went home and took a hot shower, then iced my back. BAD IDEA. It made me want to crawl into a hole in the ground and cry cause i felt so sick after the hotness. Waaahh. Now i have to call jeff cause i just woke up and he called me while i was aSLEEP. haha oh man i want to watch friends. BUT I HAVE NO MORE EPISODES AHHHH. oh well i'll start over. I still feel like i'm waisting my life not doing anything for college or something. YEAh i think i need a psychoanalyst. that would be nice. I'm a troubled little girl, But you couldn't tell, could you?

your job;s a joke, youre broke? Youre love life's DOA?