RAR
i dont expect most of you guys to read this.
everything is making me angry lately. especially lax. our team is so much better this year, but at the same time its worse. i cant believe coach cut galina. also some of the girls on the team think theyre amazing when in reality they arent any better than the rest of us. they act bitchy towards the rest of the team and that makes me so angry. but i dont do anything about it, since im not the type of person that speaks up much. im not the type that acts like a bitch to people i dont like. i just cant do that. so i dont understand how some of these girls can be so cruel to their own team mates. we need to function as a team, if you think youre so much better than us, then go make your own team. RAR
most people would be glad to have a B+ in chem, but im not. im so mad. i worked my butt off this semester on chem to get an A, and at the last few weeks i failed a test and my grade dropped to an 87 from a 95. this last quiz, julie and i got the same answer and set up a problem the same way, but i had more points taken off then she did. that really pissed me off. i talked to me teacher and he gave me another point for it, but report cards have already been sent out. sigh.. not like it even makes that big a deal. my grade is still an 89. i freakin hate chem. it should go kill itself by jumping off a cliff into pointed rocks and piranas.
for the next month, ill be working my butt off for ethnic fair. chinese dance is working just fine; im not so sure the korean one is gonna work out. we have less than a month and the korean dance hasnt even started. the chinese one is so crappy, this is an ethnic fair, why the frick is our dance hip hop? the moves dont even match the music all that well.. i wanna quit, but then im screwing everyone else over.
i also have to focus on church as well. baptism is in about a week and half. im not ready. i wish i had waited. i dunno.. i wanna get baptized as soon as possible, but i dont feel like i deserve it. im a bit hesitant about it, although i really shouldnt be.
im seriously looking forward to break. hopefully jessica will come back and we can hang out like last year.. but its still not the same. i see her only a few times a year and my parents just dont understand that if i had the chance to see her in person, its a lot better than talking on the phone or online. it frustrates me so much that my parents dont understand half the things im going through. im not close to them, although i wish i was. ive tried talking to them and telling them about my life, but they never understand. ive given up trying.
my cousin from cali is coming to live with us at our house. im glad hes not going to china, but at the same time i wish he would cuz i feel like things are gonna get a lot more complicated once he moves in. i know nothing about him and im gonna have to start cooking for him. i met him when i was little, but that doesnt exactly count.
all in all, i want things the way they once were. i want freshman year back. i want my best friend back, before she moved away. i miss hopping over the fence between out houses to get to hers. i miss going to oasis with her. i miss watching whose line, starbucks, and whatever other crazy things i did with her. i miss her notes in school, i miss self defense class, i miss asian club and project lead with her. as much as i love sophomore year, i think i like freahman year more. people werent as bitchy last year, and if they were i didnt notice.
im too scared of change. but that how the world works.
everything is making me angry lately. especially lax. our team is so much better this year, but at the same time its worse. i cant believe coach cut galina. also some of the girls on the team think theyre amazing when in reality they arent any better than the rest of us. they act bitchy towards the rest of the team and that makes me so angry. but i dont do anything about it, since im not the type of person that speaks up much. im not the type that acts like a bitch to people i dont like. i just cant do that. so i dont understand how some of these girls can be so cruel to their own team mates. we need to function as a team, if you think youre so much better than us, then go make your own team. RAR
most people would be glad to have a B+ in chem, but im not. im so mad. i worked my butt off this semester on chem to get an A, and at the last few weeks i failed a test and my grade dropped to an 87 from a 95. this last quiz, julie and i got the same answer and set up a problem the same way, but i had more points taken off then she did. that really pissed me off. i talked to me teacher and he gave me another point for it, but report cards have already been sent out. sigh.. not like it even makes that big a deal. my grade is still an 89. i freakin hate chem. it should go kill itself by jumping off a cliff into pointed rocks and piranas.
for the next month, ill be working my butt off for ethnic fair. chinese dance is working just fine; im not so sure the korean one is gonna work out. we have less than a month and the korean dance hasnt even started. the chinese one is so crappy, this is an ethnic fair, why the frick is our dance hip hop? the moves dont even match the music all that well.. i wanna quit, but then im screwing everyone else over.
i also have to focus on church as well. baptism is in about a week and half. im not ready. i wish i had waited. i dunno.. i wanna get baptized as soon as possible, but i dont feel like i deserve it. im a bit hesitant about it, although i really shouldnt be.
im seriously looking forward to break. hopefully jessica will come back and we can hang out like last year.. but its still not the same. i see her only a few times a year and my parents just dont understand that if i had the chance to see her in person, its a lot better than talking on the phone or online. it frustrates me so much that my parents dont understand half the things im going through. im not close to them, although i wish i was. ive tried talking to them and telling them about my life, but they never understand. ive given up trying.
my cousin from cali is coming to live with us at our house. im glad hes not going to china, but at the same time i wish he would cuz i feel like things are gonna get a lot more complicated once he moves in. i know nothing about him and im gonna have to start cooking for him. i met him when i was little, but that doesnt exactly count.
all in all, i want things the way they once were. i want freshman year back. i want my best friend back, before she moved away. i miss hopping over the fence between out houses to get to hers. i miss going to oasis with her. i miss watching whose line, starbucks, and whatever other crazy things i did with her. i miss her notes in school, i miss self defense class, i miss asian club and project lead with her. as much as i love sophomore year, i think i like freahman year more. people werent as bitchy last year, and if they were i didnt notice.
im too scared of change. but that how the world works.