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Happiness is a fleeting emotion...like every emotion. Fleeting because no matter how long it lingers it always goes away. Afterwards all that remains is a memory, whatever your mind can recall and play back for you, whatever you remembered feeling in that particular moment. You can play it back and smile, or even feel a little sad, but eventually it fades and you want to search for another moment of happiness to replace it or make it come alive again. Whatever pieces of joy i can find i hold on to tighter than anything....because they dont come that often, and they always leave before i want them too. I think part of living is to keep on searching....to find some way to push the pain back for a while and be happy. Yet sad because you know it is going to end....no matter how much time there is, it always runs out. Things end, new things begin, old things can never come back no matter how much you want them too. My happiness comes with pain, they walk hand in hand with me....and i think i've accepted it, maybe even a part of me likes it that way....who knows? One can't be without the other.
I feel like there is so much in me that i want to get out but i can hardly think straight, too many things are battling inside me. Too many thoughts. But tonight they are happy thoughts...mixed with so many other things, but the positive is struggling to shine through....
Yeah that probably doesnt make much sense....sorry.
I feel like there is so much in me that i want to get out but i can hardly think straight, too many things are battling inside me. Too many thoughts. But tonight they are happy thoughts...mixed with so many other things, but the positive is struggling to shine through....
Yeah that probably doesnt make much sense....sorry.