(one-shot) So alone
Title: So alone
Author: xxyunjaelovexx
length: one-shot
pairing: yunjae
Genre: angst, character death
"Sometimes I feel so alone. He used to be there and now....He is not"
Everything was so empty, silent. No Junsu playing games on his computer, no Yoochun playing music softly in his study, no Changmin begging him to cook food and no him. No warm welcoming hug, no helping with the groceries, no annoying kisses while he was preparing food, just an empty house. A soft meow was heard and Jiji appeared from the kitchen, so maybe not so empty but still...
"you hungry" he bent down, patting the soft fur "come on then let's prepare something", tuna in a bowl and jiji was happy but he had completely lost his appetite, looking down on the food he bought, he had no energy to make something out of it, just putting it away in the fridge.
......
Raining, he sat there staring out into the grey reality. The TV was on in the background but he didn't feel like watching it but he couldn’t turn it of either, without it, it would be too silent. A painful reminder of what is not there.
The phone rang but he just keept staring out, letting the answer machine take it.
"......leave a message after the beep" that voice, closing his eyes, breathing.
"Hi" hesitantly "It's me....I just wanted to check up on you and....Junsu is worried...and Changmin misses you" silence "I know you're there so just pick up" silence "please" longer silence "I'll call later okay" silence, just the sound from the TV echoing through the apartment.
Jiji jumped up on his lap, stroking the soft head, big eyes looking back at him.
"I miss him Jiji....I...I need him...God I need him" fighting back the tears, can't cry...can't cry.
.....
The worst are the nights, an empty bed, no one to embrace, no warmth to steal, just an empty bed. He hadn't slept the whole night for weeks.
At last he gave up, got out of bed, and reached for the answer machine.
*beep*
"Jae it's me, happy birthday....ehm my gift will be late...I didn't forget it I promise. Gotta go, Bye love you ~ "
*beep*
"Hi boo, are you cooking? Can you pick up or am I disturbing you? Anyways call me later right"
*beep*
"Reminder to myself; remember to buy that cologne for Yunho's birthday...oh and if you might hear this Yunho...I'm not buying cologne for you okay"
*beep*
"Yunho, I left early, I didn't want to wake you. Don’t forget Changminnies birthday today, feed Jiji for me when you wake up and don't mess up my apartment, love you"
*beep* Silence, then the tears.
.......
A year, a year of emptiness, a year of silence. Biting his lips, looking down at the stone, marking someone who wasn't there.
Steps…"Yunho?" He turned around at the call of his name and immediately got caught in an embrace. "You came". Yunho just nodded but Yoochun smiled back. "I've been worried".
"You weren't the only one" New voices, Changmin and Junsu were coming against them. Warm embraces from both of them.
"You’re thinner" Changmin noted.
"I've gained weight" just a statement, but he’s feeling better, warmer.
"Sometimes I feel so alone. He used to be there and now....He is not...but they are...and then sometimes I'm not so lonely anymore.
A/N: I apologize, truly. Next time I will try to write something more cheereful, it's just that I think I'm a little bit of a sadist, and well I like to torture Jae, or is it Yunho? since yunho will have to live with the pain and Jae is just....dead....yeah. Anyway this was once again my BFFangekarlsson who was my inspiration. I don't get why she gives me these ideas since well she loves fluff.
I love all of yu who are reading <3