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ever feel like everyone is against you?
of the 3 people i am accustomed to feeling closest to, they're all making me feel distant from everyone, including myself.
i am doing everything in my power to make things easy and comfortable and it's just it's never good enough. i pretend that i am okay with everything and that it will be okay to make it easier. i just don't know how long i can keep on pretending and then breaking down when i'm alone.
i know it's a long wait and i can't expect to just move on. but it's like i express an interest in anyone and feel good about it.
i hate it when people try to relate to me and then just flaunt their lives in front of me.
as if that will make things easier.
and it's like all of the people who i criticize for moving from friend to friend.. well that's what i'm starting to feel like. a fucking hypocrite.
i used to be so close to all of my friends and now they're just doing so much to hurt me. sometimes i feel like if i could just lock myself up in my room forever i'd be okay and no one could hurt me anymore.
it's not like they are asking how i am anyway. so maybe they wouldn't even notice.
of the 3 people i am accustomed to feeling closest to, they're all making me feel distant from everyone, including myself.
i am doing everything in my power to make things easy and comfortable and it's just it's never good enough. i pretend that i am okay with everything and that it will be okay to make it easier. i just don't know how long i can keep on pretending and then breaking down when i'm alone.
i know it's a long wait and i can't expect to just move on. but it's like i express an interest in anyone and feel good about it.
i hate it when people try to relate to me and then just flaunt their lives in front of me.
as if that will make things easier.
and it's like all of the people who i criticize for moving from friend to friend.. well that's what i'm starting to feel like. a fucking hypocrite.
i used to be so close to all of my friends and now they're just doing so much to hurt me. sometimes i feel like if i could just lock myself up in my room forever i'd be okay and no one could hurt me anymore.
it's not like they are asking how i am anyway. so maybe they wouldn't even notice.