An entry that isn't a rant/opinion/article/typical steve post?! no way!
Wow, I haven't done this in a while- but here goes.
Was at allegheny park all weekend, cool place. Went on some trails, saw the thunder rocks.. and climbed them. Yeah that's right, you're jealous. Too much thunder for you. Played some beer pong, ate way too many hotdogs, found out that shots that come out of a test tube lookin' thing are the tastiest things in the world.
Most of all though, it was nice to get away from suburbia. I took my journal with me, however.. didn't write in it. I meant to write a song while I was there, but I didn't really want to take the time out from everyone else, only had one full day.
I did read my journal while I was there though. A lot of memories, as always. A lot of beliefs, a lot of feeling.. all things I almost wish I felt anymore.
I can't really describe the days I go through now.. it's all a blur. I don't have as much fun as I used to, there's something missing. I can't put my finger on it. It's almost feels like everything that is happening.. has already happened, and I'm just watching a really boring movie. I need suspense, I need a drive, I need anything to lift me out of the colossal hole I've dug my way into.
Everyone keeps telling me to just drop it all and live my life, be happy.. including myself. Yea I talk to myself. More than you'd think. But anyway, I just can't seem to follow through. Everything seems like a waste of time, or uninteresting. I have spurts of forgetting all that, and I'm back to myself again.. but sitting in one place and thinking brings it all back.
I need more hobbies. That's a given. Especially active, outside ones. I sure as hell don't have a lot money right now though, so.. who knows how that will be taken care of. But where there's a will, there's a way..
Now I just need to remember how to have a will to do something. Wish me luck.
-Steve0
Was at allegheny park all weekend, cool place. Went on some trails, saw the thunder rocks.. and climbed them. Yeah that's right, you're jealous. Too much thunder for you. Played some beer pong, ate way too many hotdogs, found out that shots that come out of a test tube lookin' thing are the tastiest things in the world.
Most of all though, it was nice to get away from suburbia. I took my journal with me, however.. didn't write in it. I meant to write a song while I was there, but I didn't really want to take the time out from everyone else, only had one full day.
I did read my journal while I was there though. A lot of memories, as always. A lot of beliefs, a lot of feeling.. all things I almost wish I felt anymore.
I can't really describe the days I go through now.. it's all a blur. I don't have as much fun as I used to, there's something missing. I can't put my finger on it. It's almost feels like everything that is happening.. has already happened, and I'm just watching a really boring movie. I need suspense, I need a drive, I need anything to lift me out of the colossal hole I've dug my way into.
Everyone keeps telling me to just drop it all and live my life, be happy.. including myself. Yea I talk to myself. More than you'd think. But anyway, I just can't seem to follow through. Everything seems like a waste of time, or uninteresting. I have spurts of forgetting all that, and I'm back to myself again.. but sitting in one place and thinking brings it all back.
I need more hobbies. That's a given. Especially active, outside ones. I sure as hell don't have a lot money right now though, so.. who knows how that will be taken care of. But where there's a will, there's a way..
Now I just need to remember how to have a will to do something. Wish me luck.
-Steve0