Bad
Today was a really bad day.
first i had the math final and that didnt go well. it wasnt too hard or n e thing, but i ran out of time. 80 geometry questions in 2 hours doesnt work. Then i had journalism and it was really sad b/c thats my favorite class in the whole entire world and now its over :(. and we still dont know who got on the falconer. mrs anderson says shes posting it tomorrow.. she better! even though i probably cant do it b/c of cheer, i still wanna know if i made it in. school got out at 12 and i came home and studied for spanish final tomorrow. then i went to cheer practice and it sucked really bad. we had to run 2 miles which isnt the end of the world. but then we had to do staminas and then like 4 jumps consecutivly and i got kind of dizzy and light headed from the heat. plus id hardly eaten n e thing. i kept going though because i didnt want the coach to think that i was a weakling or something. then we went onto stunting which was absolutley miserable. because i missed last practice the stunt groups got rearranged. and either i suck really bad or my new stunt group just didnt work. allie was my back and if she hadnt been there i would have gotten dropped a million times. my bases were arianna and stephanie. stephanie seems really nice, but arianna doesnt really. not to mention, she wasnt really catching me. i didnt feel very comfortable. first we did preps and i seriously could hardly do them. and of course, ne one who has seen my cradles knows how messed up they are. my group couldnt get me into extension at all. they said that i was pushing them apart or something. i was trying really hard to fix every little thing they said i did wrong, but i guess i just couldnt. i really do suck :(. i always feel so bad for whoevers stunt group im in because i completely ruin it for them. then on full downs i guess i was doing those really bad too and everyone was giving me all these corrections and i was trying... but my best really isnt good enough. libs were disasterous... i think everyone did at least one today except for me. i have no idea why i made the team. i tried to act happy at the rest of practice, but started crying in the car. its so frustering for me, im not at the same level as everyone else. everyone at cheer is so good.. and im terriable. i know it will get better (at least i hope), but im not looking forward to practices any more. when im there, i feel sorry for whoever i have to stunt with. i guess im just kind of out of place. and im really not good enough to fill the responsibility of being a torrey pines cheerleader.
have to study for finals. tomorrows the last day of school. yay.
first i had the math final and that didnt go well. it wasnt too hard or n e thing, but i ran out of time. 80 geometry questions in 2 hours doesnt work. Then i had journalism and it was really sad b/c thats my favorite class in the whole entire world and now its over :(. and we still dont know who got on the falconer. mrs anderson says shes posting it tomorrow.. she better! even though i probably cant do it b/c of cheer, i still wanna know if i made it in. school got out at 12 and i came home and studied for spanish final tomorrow. then i went to cheer practice and it sucked really bad. we had to run 2 miles which isnt the end of the world. but then we had to do staminas and then like 4 jumps consecutivly and i got kind of dizzy and light headed from the heat. plus id hardly eaten n e thing. i kept going though because i didnt want the coach to think that i was a weakling or something. then we went onto stunting which was absolutley miserable. because i missed last practice the stunt groups got rearranged. and either i suck really bad or my new stunt group just didnt work. allie was my back and if she hadnt been there i would have gotten dropped a million times. my bases were arianna and stephanie. stephanie seems really nice, but arianna doesnt really. not to mention, she wasnt really catching me. i didnt feel very comfortable. first we did preps and i seriously could hardly do them. and of course, ne one who has seen my cradles knows how messed up they are. my group couldnt get me into extension at all. they said that i was pushing them apart or something. i was trying really hard to fix every little thing they said i did wrong, but i guess i just couldnt. i really do suck :(. i always feel so bad for whoevers stunt group im in because i completely ruin it for them. then on full downs i guess i was doing those really bad too and everyone was giving me all these corrections and i was trying... but my best really isnt good enough. libs were disasterous... i think everyone did at least one today except for me. i have no idea why i made the team. i tried to act happy at the rest of practice, but started crying in the car. its so frustering for me, im not at the same level as everyone else. everyone at cheer is so good.. and im terriable. i know it will get better (at least i hope), but im not looking forward to practices any more. when im there, i feel sorry for whoever i have to stunt with. i guess im just kind of out of place. and im really not good enough to fill the responsibility of being a torrey pines cheerleader.
have to study for finals. tomorrows the last day of school. yay.