"thinking is overrated" - the great kenny blankertz
thinking really is overrated. it just makes everything more difficult and more confusing. i was doing ok until last night. then i had a conversation with someone that just made me think, made me think a lot. last night was crazy and so was the aftermath but its all good now b/c we are all great friends to one another up here at MSU. i love just being able to sit and talk with them. it made me figure out a lot. like that i really do miss it. i came to the conclusion that i just don't miss the situation, i miss the person. and i also came to the conclusion that i just think that if i pretend like things don't bother me, then they won't. and then last night happened and i realized that things just don't go away b/c you forget about them. you need to get over them slowly, or never get over them. i liked to think i was over it, but after a conversation last night i realized that i was far from being over it. very very far from it. i've had my fun, i've been stupid, i've done the random thing and i don't want to. i don't like it. it just difficult when you don't know whats going on in the other persons head. and it drives me crazy thinking about it, hence thinking is overrated. i miss it all so much, and i'm so scared that i'll never ever get it back again.
on a lighter note, COLIN HAS TWO LITTLE TURTLES!!! i told him to name them squirt and crush, from nemo, but he didn't :o( colin is wonderfully random haha... just look
Losers1ntuition: im going to be elvis
dancerchic1026: awesome
Losers1ntuition: yeah
dancerchic1026: so what inspired you to be elvis?
Losers1ntuition: elvis himself
Losers1ntuition: he came to me
Losers1ntuition: and hes like
Losers1ntuition: colin
Losers1ntuition: you should be me
Losers1ntuition: so i told him i would
haha gotta love those howell boys lol. i miss them i haven't seen them in a while. i have to drive home from pennsylvania allllll by myself on sunday, this could be interesting/dangerous. we'll see what happens. me and deanna have orientation at PNC on sunday. this is our first job ever together and i have a feeling it is going to rock like woah deedle deedle. hahahahahaha oh deedle. my dance show is tonight. my parents and kelsey are coming. my dad is going to see me grab my boobs :o/ hey its part of the choreography. ya do what ya got to do. well that is all. i need to take the pen off my body from my tattoos from last night lol. yeah definately getting in the shower. peace out. deedle
*melis*
on a lighter note, COLIN HAS TWO LITTLE TURTLES!!! i told him to name them squirt and crush, from nemo, but he didn't :o( colin is wonderfully random haha... just look
Losers1ntuition: im going to be elvis
dancerchic1026: awesome
Losers1ntuition: yeah
dancerchic1026: so what inspired you to be elvis?
Losers1ntuition: elvis himself
Losers1ntuition: he came to me
Losers1ntuition: and hes like
Losers1ntuition: colin
Losers1ntuition: you should be me
Losers1ntuition: so i told him i would
haha gotta love those howell boys lol. i miss them i haven't seen them in a while. i have to drive home from pennsylvania allllll by myself on sunday, this could be interesting/dangerous. we'll see what happens. me and deanna have orientation at PNC on sunday. this is our first job ever together and i have a feeling it is going to rock like woah deedle deedle. hahahahahaha oh deedle. my dance show is tonight. my parents and kelsey are coming. my dad is going to see me grab my boobs :o/ hey its part of the choreography. ya do what ya got to do. well that is all. i need to take the pen off my body from my tattoos from last night lol. yeah definately getting in the shower. peace out. deedle
*melis*