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[xxxsmurfetnicky]

BLAH thats how I feel ... ugh just when u think everything is going ok trust me I dont want to deal with drama im over it. But im the one that had to look through leroys phone and what him and racheal talkin about fuckin everything. Even though I was totally under the impression that she was always hitting him up but I see that its defantley mutual. UgH now just to talk to leroy about it I defantley dont want to but Im so pissed at him hes gonna know theres something wrong so I mite as well put it out there. And I just feel like they make me a fuckign joke mother fucker I am not the BALL AND CHAIN bitch and u can joke to ur freinds like that but not ur ex. JEsus christ im sick of getting no god damn respect in relationships im so nice and everyone walks all over me and my fucking feelings. I gave him a chance to tell me about it before and he really didnt have anything to say just repeat wtf I had to say. This has totally ruined my day Idk what to do how to act how to feel. I feel so unloved and stupid .... god why do I just give my all to someone really like were the fuck did the heartbreaker nicky go ... can she please come back and be a bitch to everyone and use all these boys cuz thats all there good for please haha. Oh well I feel like im gonna get super drunk tonite good or bad idk and i dont care ... well heres to what happens next CHEERS !

ONE LOVE NICKY SMITH !