frustrated and depressed
i had a really shitty day. i had an interview at a store called green earth, so i venture out in the disgusting 40 degree [celsius] weather on 2 buses. i always like to arrive for my interview 5 mins early or so to show i am punctual and so i go in and tell the man at the front my name and that i have an interview and he doesn't even look up at me and is like "that's with me, GIVE ME A MINUTE, just WAIT. you will have to JUST WAIT" and as i was walking up to him in the store i got such an unfriendly vibe from him and hoped my interview wasn't with him and was not happy when he said it was. so i ponder around the store for a bit until he's ready and we go to the back. my interview was like 5.4 seconds long with him hinting rudely i wasn't want he wanted at all, he never showed any emotion, never smiled and his tone of voice was pretty angry and hostile. all he asked me was what skills i had [even though it says that on my resume!] and why i left my jobs. and when i went to give my references he was like "i dont think those will be necessary...not at all" and i turned around to shake his hand and he closed the door on me as i was like "nice meeting you"with my hand out. i looked like an ass talking to a door. i almost wanted to go to the girl working and ask her if he was always like that. i left the mall in tears. though i would NEVER want to work with anyone like him, i just felt so low. why do i keep having these interviews that are 5 minutes long, is it because they look at me and don't wanna hire me because i'm a bigger girl? my mom keeps pounding it into my head that stores don't hire fat people because they need good looking people to entice customers. why can't i find a job...i used to get jobs so easily with less experience. i feel like something's wrong with me. i have handed out alot of resumes. and i want to hand out even more [i've handed out around 20 in the past 2-3 weekds] but our printer isn't friggin working and i can't afford to buy a new printer or photocopy my resume again. i feel like i can never get ahead in life.
i feel so down, and depressed. my friend came over tonight and all i wanted to do was be alone and lay in bed. i don't understand how some people can just walk into a store and pretty much have a job the next day. i just don't know what to do and i've got 0 support because my mom's like GET A JOB I DO EVERYTHING AROUND HERE and my friends are like "well it's so easy to get a job i don't know why you can't".
i'm so lost and i wish something would go right. i'm very good with money and have made what i have last for a long time but i have so much to pay for and so much i need to buy it's hard to do without a job.
*sigh*