Life...
Ive been thinking lately...bout my family and friends...
How my parents and grand parents and many other relatives grow in age...made me relize that they might not be here one day...
and this being my senior year...i will prolly never see jake again...our lives are going in different directions...
ive lived so long off others...no not shelter or food wise...i mean with their exsistance...their love and comfort...their protection and memories...and i of course returning the favor...
ive been thinking lately and dreaming...how will i go on ? how can i live ? these people are my air my sun my house my life...
sure ive lost people before to death or other reasons but no one truely close...no one whom ive grown up with and shared my life and my soul with...and i know i have friends online but we met apart so our relationship adapted to this gap and nonexsistance of physicalness...does that make us even closer ? to have developed a relationship purely on sharing your thoughts, your life, your soul without knowing what the other looks or feels like...i would think that that does make us closer...
im so confused...i rather the world end so i wont have to deal with it...if losing a dog or a friend in a different state makes me feel so sad, i wonder what losing someone so close to me will be like...i dont want to know...
everyone i come in contact with takes a peice of me for inexchange a peice of them...almost as if we share things to make each other stronger...
(side-note: dont mean this to be a sad thing, im just writing out my thoughts. helps me think.)
How my parents and grand parents and many other relatives grow in age...made me relize that they might not be here one day...
and this being my senior year...i will prolly never see jake again...our lives are going in different directions...
ive lived so long off others...no not shelter or food wise...i mean with their exsistance...their love and comfort...their protection and memories...and i of course returning the favor...
ive been thinking lately and dreaming...how will i go on ? how can i live ? these people are my air my sun my house my life...
sure ive lost people before to death or other reasons but no one truely close...no one whom ive grown up with and shared my life and my soul with...and i know i have friends online but we met apart so our relationship adapted to this gap and nonexsistance of physicalness...does that make us even closer ? to have developed a relationship purely on sharing your thoughts, your life, your soul without knowing what the other looks or feels like...i would think that that does make us closer...
im so confused...i rather the world end so i wont have to deal with it...if losing a dog or a friend in a different state makes me feel so sad, i wonder what losing someone so close to me will be like...i dont want to know...
everyone i come in contact with takes a peice of me for inexchange a peice of them...almost as if we share things to make each other stronger...
(side-note: dont mean this to be a sad thing, im just writing out my thoughts. helps me think.)