All Alone
So i'm getting close to going two weeks alone. And Guy doesn't call as much as he used to (which is understandable as it's EXPENSIVE)..but I'm starting to really feel like I need attention..which is not good, cuz if I need it bad enough i know i'm going to cheat on him..which I KNOW don't want to..but idk, I'm so tired or being a single mom, and feeling like he's out there having the time of his life...I know he's not drinking everynight and parting like it's 1999 or anything like that..but I keep picturing him having it so easy. I mean I love my Panik (daughter) to death, but I HATE being single. I feel like i'm in hell.
It's not like I can't live without a boy..It feels like we're not going out, but I still have to follow all his stupid rules. (WHich i don't)..I have all the bad things about our relationship and non of the good..
I know everything will get better once we're together again. Long distance relationships Suck soo much, I'm never doing it again..
And if we're not there by the end of the month, I'm creating a new plan, I feel stupid for waiting around for him..just stupid..
It's not like I can't live without a boy..It feels like we're not going out, but I still have to follow all his stupid rules. (WHich i don't)..I have all the bad things about our relationship and non of the good..
I know everything will get better once we're together again. Long distance relationships Suck soo much, I'm never doing it again..
And if we're not there by the end of the month, I'm creating a new plan, I feel stupid for waiting around for him..just stupid..