Back Home ^-^
so i'm back home now..and i have been for like a week...which i absolutely luv..it was weird at first cuz i wasn't sure how well i'd be able to transition into going back to the old me..like, idk it's not that i change hard core when i'm not here but I know i act different..and i know the boyz notice cuz they think i'm a total bitch after being home..but oh well i'm actually happy, I don't think as much so i'm a lot happier I don't worry about what other people think and I don't always feel like I need to change when I'm here..idk why but ppl here always made me feel like i was normal..even if i'm not like them it's never been a bad thing, i've always felt accepted...
I miss my friends and whatever, but i mean after I had Shady things wern't the same, not like we didn't talk or anything, but i mean it was weird talking to them knowing that they get to go out and party and whatever and i'm stuck at home with a baby, i always felt like I was so old, or that I had to like grow up before i was ready, but here I feel like I can still take the time I need to adjust to having a kid and that's aweosme, i love knowing that I'm not being rushed or forced into doing anything..
Tuesday was me and GUy's eleven month anniversary, i know he doesn't care about the days and whatever, but I still love knowing that I could actually not get bored of someoen for that long, i'm actually really quite suprised...I really didn't think it would last more then a month, like I said before it was a highschool crush thing and I knew eventually he would get bored of me..but hehe I fooled him for this long, i'm sure I can keep it up..lol...nah I like what we have...
Tomorrow is the dance woo hoo, i know it's super dorky but i mean with no clubs or bars around here it's the best form of entertainment and I've been trying to learn how to C-walk, and i have the basic steps down but I just can't figure out how to spell things out and whatever..if any of you guys know how to c-walk i'd love some advice..hehe..
anyways i should go,,,actually i just can't think of anything else to say..
MISS YA
I miss my friends and whatever, but i mean after I had Shady things wern't the same, not like we didn't talk or anything, but i mean it was weird talking to them knowing that they get to go out and party and whatever and i'm stuck at home with a baby, i always felt like I was so old, or that I had to like grow up before i was ready, but here I feel like I can still take the time I need to adjust to having a kid and that's aweosme, i love knowing that I'm not being rushed or forced into doing anything..
Tuesday was me and GUy's eleven month anniversary, i know he doesn't care about the days and whatever, but I still love knowing that I could actually not get bored of someoen for that long, i'm actually really quite suprised...I really didn't think it would last more then a month, like I said before it was a highschool crush thing and I knew eventually he would get bored of me..but hehe I fooled him for this long, i'm sure I can keep it up..lol...nah I like what we have...
Tomorrow is the dance woo hoo, i know it's super dorky but i mean with no clubs or bars around here it's the best form of entertainment and I've been trying to learn how to C-walk, and i have the basic steps down but I just can't figure out how to spell things out and whatever..if any of you guys know how to c-walk i'd love some advice..hehe..
anyways i should go,,,actually i just can't think of anything else to say..
MISS YA