Down so low.
I feel damned and shamed. I haven't felt like this in some time. There's so much going on and all of it just adds up to noise. I'm lost, misplaced, disappointed, and lonely. Sometimes the scars just hurt too much and the medication is only making things worse. The feeling of hurt and anger is always there. I can dull the pain, but I can't make it go away and all attempts get thrown back in my face. I know I should, "Cheer up, (I'll) hurt much less tomorrow...", but right now that feeling seems so far away.