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Anonymous asked: Sorry to be dumping this on you Neaf, but I don't have anyone to talk to, and that's sort of the problem. I've been lying to everyone I know for the last couple of months, saying I've been going to classes and studying. When the truth is I've barely opened a book. Idrk why... But the guilt is starting to get to me, and it's kind of scary how easily I lie now. It's like a reflex. I feel like I've dug so deep now, and I can't get myself to admit anything to anyone. I really don't know what to do.
i will forever maintain that i’m not the best person to go to for advice, but what i can do is suggest maybe finding a person - just one person - that you care about and you know cares a lot about you. a close or best friend, your mother, your father or a sibling. someone you know you trust, and tell them what’s happening.
if you explain how you’re feeling, they may be able to give you some more direct advice.
take it from someone who spent a good deal of her young life lying to everyone, it never works out well in the end. lies are so hard to manage the more you weave them together, in the end you forget the specifics and you end up so worried you’ll get caught you give yourself away. then the world comes crashing down.
the sooner you get out, the sooner you stop, the better the outcome will be. i’m not saying it’s not going to suck, it really is. but it will be so, so much worse if you keep going. believe me.
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Oh, God, this one. Hit too close to home. ;w;