Good weekend...

[xxxlunastarxxx]

Despite that he was late, Patrick came over and went to the Hayride thing! We also went to the petting zoo and a corn maze! Pat dared me to go to a Haunted House but I just didnt wanna go coz I have a slight asthma, and I forgot about that and it said ppl with conditions like that shouldnt go in. LOTs of ppl were scared. Then we drove to Newburgh to get some stuff and fem-products, then made out in the parking lot(and more things)! Then rented Sin City, ate dinner, watched it but we just did stuff instead and Pat went to bed early! I woke up crying realizing that I shouldnt be depressed and unhappy the rest of my life, I mean yeah things are challenging but it shouldnt make me upset and stop me from trying! Then woke up slept next to Pat, went to Woodbury Commons, walked around, ate @ Applebee's and came home. He helped out with some things, then we took pix of us and he left! Now that he has night shifts and is off on weekends, I can see him more than ever, but not these next two weekends coming up coz we're going away(me to Cali and him to Canada).

I would like this positive attitude to last me at least awhile. I know the people that care and are always there when I need them. I have a great support system and I know there are more options to life than what I have, and this Career Planning class will hopefully put me in the right direction. In the meanwhile I have other shit to tackle! And I need to learn not to only depend on others for my happiness! I build my own happiness=)!