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There is so much going on.
I received incredible news today. I had been hesitant and hadn’t talked a whole lot about this but by the convincing of my professor I had agreed to apply for a TA position that she was offering. The class is cognitive psych, not by personal focus, but she’s a dynamic professor and that makes all the difference when it comes to the subject matter.
I actually was in her office today because I had to turn in a paper late. Ironic timing. We talked for a few minutes. She asked my opinion on a number of topics regarding the class and I gave her honest feedback. She then asked if I was still interested in the TA position and when I said yes she told me I was hired on the spot.
So yeah. My third job. An official assistant teacher. Duties include:
Proctoring all quizzes and exams
Designing class activities and movies for the class
Maintaining office hours for students to stop by with questions
Running study groups before exams
Keeping track of every students grade and posting all grades online
But the best part, and the part that makes this job such an incredible offer, is that I will be assisting the professor in designing a new Cognitive Psych class for the following year and helping pitch the idea to administration. The new class will be designed as both lecture and lab so I will be helping to design all the labs.
This is absolutely it. This is my admission into grad school. They’re not going to turn down a student who not only served as a TA but helped design a lab cognitive psych class.
I am so excited about this offer. It is not a paid position but I receive a good deal of credit toward graduation and like I said, this is my admission into grad school. It’s perfect and I am so proud.
I’ve been so eager for a new school experience. There’s so much about the academic system that drives me up a wall, god I fuckin hate elite academia but I love what I study and I love how I apply my studies.
A year and a half and I graduate. A year and a half and I am out of this place.
I think about it everyday. I’ve finally reached the point in my life where I welcome change. I’ve let go of a lot of my fears and I have decided that I am ready to venture out on my own. A year and a half. I finish college and I find a grad school.
I’ve got my hopes set on Rhode Island. There is a graduate program in holistic counseling that I would give nearly anything to get into. This program is made for me and utilizes the field of expressive therapy with classes in art therapy, dance therapy, holistic healing, and Jungian analysis. There are similar programs in schools located in Mass and New Hampshire. Rhode Island looks like the top choice and I don’t see why the school would turn me down. A year and a half. I want to be on my own.
This life, I hardly recognize. Today was a whirlwind of excitement, connection, and activity.
The goal of my life has been activity over passivity. It is too easy to live life passively, too easy to live inside yourself and never step outside of your own fears and boundaries. It is very difficult to initiate change and transformation but sometimes all it takes is one step outside the circle, maybe just one move that everyone tells you is completely irrational or completely selfish…and then it all falls into place and you’re living a life that you never thought you’d be strong enough to live.
I’ve spent my entire life terrified of change and terrified of stepping outside of myself. I don’t feel like I have any wise words on the topic. I spent a lot of time today thinking about what I could say about change but the only thing I have to say is that change rests upon finding something that moves you. Must find a source of passion and then do everything possible to dance your life to the beat of that passion.
These days I keep myself very busy. I’m working two jobs right now and it seems like my second job at the yoga studio has become my second home. But I love my work and I feel like I am living for my work. Outside of work, outside of school and my practice, I find myself enjoying my own company and not even wishing to change this. I enjoy the time for myself, it feels much needed, and it feels like the possibility to be a new experience each day. I do so much reading. I do little writing but hope to get back into that during the winter months. I’m going to keep up this isolation for a little while longer until I feel that I get everything that I need from it. And I’m not completely isolated, I go out once a week or so, it’s just hard to match my schedule up with friends.
I think back to my life just a few months ago, god I was living such a fuckin mess. I was having breakdowns about once a month, my anxiety was controlling every facet of my life, I was KILLING myself at that fuckin store and going to school full time and working full time. And that’s not even mentioning any of the emotional drama.
And I just walked away from it all. It wasn’t easy and I walked forwards but had my head looking backwards every step of the way. I think it’s finally coming together, working out for everyone that was involved in certain situations. I think that I am finally coming together.
I received incredible news today. I had been hesitant and hadn’t talked a whole lot about this but by the convincing of my professor I had agreed to apply for a TA position that she was offering. The class is cognitive psych, not by personal focus, but she’s a dynamic professor and that makes all the difference when it comes to the subject matter.
I actually was in her office today because I had to turn in a paper late. Ironic timing. We talked for a few minutes. She asked my opinion on a number of topics regarding the class and I gave her honest feedback. She then asked if I was still interested in the TA position and when I said yes she told me I was hired on the spot.
So yeah. My third job. An official assistant teacher. Duties include:
Proctoring all quizzes and exams
Designing class activities and movies for the class
Maintaining office hours for students to stop by with questions
Running study groups before exams
Keeping track of every students grade and posting all grades online
But the best part, and the part that makes this job such an incredible offer, is that I will be assisting the professor in designing a new Cognitive Psych class for the following year and helping pitch the idea to administration. The new class will be designed as both lecture and lab so I will be helping to design all the labs.
This is absolutely it. This is my admission into grad school. They’re not going to turn down a student who not only served as a TA but helped design a lab cognitive psych class.
I am so excited about this offer. It is not a paid position but I receive a good deal of credit toward graduation and like I said, this is my admission into grad school. It’s perfect and I am so proud.
I’ve been so eager for a new school experience. There’s so much about the academic system that drives me up a wall, god I fuckin hate elite academia but I love what I study and I love how I apply my studies.
A year and a half and I graduate. A year and a half and I am out of this place.
I think about it everyday. I’ve finally reached the point in my life where I welcome change. I’ve let go of a lot of my fears and I have decided that I am ready to venture out on my own. A year and a half. I finish college and I find a grad school.
I’ve got my hopes set on Rhode Island. There is a graduate program in holistic counseling that I would give nearly anything to get into. This program is made for me and utilizes the field of expressive therapy with classes in art therapy, dance therapy, holistic healing, and Jungian analysis. There are similar programs in schools located in Mass and New Hampshire. Rhode Island looks like the top choice and I don’t see why the school would turn me down. A year and a half. I want to be on my own.
This life, I hardly recognize. Today was a whirlwind of excitement, connection, and activity.
The goal of my life has been activity over passivity. It is too easy to live life passively, too easy to live inside yourself and never step outside of your own fears and boundaries. It is very difficult to initiate change and transformation but sometimes all it takes is one step outside the circle, maybe just one move that everyone tells you is completely irrational or completely selfish…and then it all falls into place and you’re living a life that you never thought you’d be strong enough to live.
I’ve spent my entire life terrified of change and terrified of stepping outside of myself. I don’t feel like I have any wise words on the topic. I spent a lot of time today thinking about what I could say about change but the only thing I have to say is that change rests upon finding something that moves you. Must find a source of passion and then do everything possible to dance your life to the beat of that passion.
These days I keep myself very busy. I’m working two jobs right now and it seems like my second job at the yoga studio has become my second home. But I love my work and I feel like I am living for my work. Outside of work, outside of school and my practice, I find myself enjoying my own company and not even wishing to change this. I enjoy the time for myself, it feels much needed, and it feels like the possibility to be a new experience each day. I do so much reading. I do little writing but hope to get back into that during the winter months. I’m going to keep up this isolation for a little while longer until I feel that I get everything that I need from it. And I’m not completely isolated, I go out once a week or so, it’s just hard to match my schedule up with friends.
I think back to my life just a few months ago, god I was living such a fuckin mess. I was having breakdowns about once a month, my anxiety was controlling every facet of my life, I was KILLING myself at that fuckin store and going to school full time and working full time. And that’s not even mentioning any of the emotional drama.
And I just walked away from it all. It wasn’t easy and I walked forwards but had my head looking backwards every step of the way. I think it’s finally coming together, working out for everyone that was involved in certain situations. I think that I am finally coming together.