a thought i cant seem to let go of.
reality. what is it. to touch feel taste and smell. its just this which i cannot understand how we feel it takes forver to achieve something in life but when we have achieved it, we think that it just happened yesterday. my head hurts i really need to go to a menatl instutution because we know its nothing physical, but it is causing me great pain. and wanting to just flip out liek i have the past few days. ill say it. ive been hitting myself in the head again when i cant cope with things. and everyday of everysecond, my brain is telling me to lose control. but if i lost control. there would be no derek there would be no music there would be nothing. i would idk its bad to think of what could happen. but i fight everyday to keep control this is who i have been ever since my birth. this war inside me. is growing...