Venting where Dean can't hear me...
So I've seen all of my unis now. Leeds was nice - I really liked the campus, but the city it's self was abit grotty. I'm crossing it off my list simply because it's basically Manchester but further away and about 5 years behind development wise.
If I'm completely honest, my head's managed to block out the bad bits of Exeter and in my head about 60% of the time I feel like I'm already set to go there. It's beautiful and mesmerising and small enough to feel at home but not so small it's clostrophobic. But it's nothing I wanted when I set out to go to uni. It's not a huge city with bright lights and non stop action. Is this good? Or am I actually gonna get there and realise I'm bored out of my brains and hate every posh pratt I'm stuck there with?
I loved Manchester when me and my sister went, and maybe the reason I don't feel drawn to it anymore is because that was ages ago so I don't really remember it. But since visiting other unis, the fact that it's all spread out and not campus based has kind of put me off abit. Plus, I'd rather not get shot thankyou very much. And... I live down the road from Birmingham, if I go to Manchester hadn't I may as well just have moved closer to Birmingham and saved wasting so much money commuting and putting up with so much stress relocating? Then again the night life would probably be better, and it's only an hour and a half away on the train.
I guess my question is: am I allowed to pick my close second choice because it's closer to Dean? It's not like I'm gonna end up somewhere I hate either way, but would I end up resenting him if I disliked Manchester, or resenting myself if I went to Exeter regardless and then was miserable cause I missed him like hell? Could we make it work if I was all that way away? yeah I think so. But would it be worth it? I'm not sure. How can I pick where to go when I'm not even sure what I want?
Please don't try to be rational to me and tell me that Dean and I probably wont last forever so don't base my life choices on him, because at this stage - however much of a loser I might be to say this - my attitude is, "we might do though".
Anyways, I have a few months before I have to make this decision but thought would be appreciated.
And by the way, if one more person spells "WEIRD" wrong I'm gonna strap them down and tattoo "WEIRD" all over their body till they get the message. Grrr.
If I'm completely honest, my head's managed to block out the bad bits of Exeter and in my head about 60% of the time I feel like I'm already set to go there. It's beautiful and mesmerising and small enough to feel at home but not so small it's clostrophobic. But it's nothing I wanted when I set out to go to uni. It's not a huge city with bright lights and non stop action. Is this good? Or am I actually gonna get there and realise I'm bored out of my brains and hate every posh pratt I'm stuck there with?
I loved Manchester when me and my sister went, and maybe the reason I don't feel drawn to it anymore is because that was ages ago so I don't really remember it. But since visiting other unis, the fact that it's all spread out and not campus based has kind of put me off abit. Plus, I'd rather not get shot thankyou very much. And... I live down the road from Birmingham, if I go to Manchester hadn't I may as well just have moved closer to Birmingham and saved wasting so much money commuting and putting up with so much stress relocating? Then again the night life would probably be better, and it's only an hour and a half away on the train.
I guess my question is: am I allowed to pick my close second choice because it's closer to Dean? It's not like I'm gonna end up somewhere I hate either way, but would I end up resenting him if I disliked Manchester, or resenting myself if I went to Exeter regardless and then was miserable cause I missed him like hell? Could we make it work if I was all that way away? yeah I think so. But would it be worth it? I'm not sure. How can I pick where to go when I'm not even sure what I want?
Please don't try to be rational to me and tell me that Dean and I probably wont last forever so don't base my life choices on him, because at this stage - however much of a loser I might be to say this - my attitude is, "we might do though".
Anyways, I have a few months before I have to make this decision but thought would be appreciated.
And by the way, if one more person spells "WEIRD" wrong I'm gonna strap them down and tattoo "WEIRD" all over their body till they get the message. Grrr.