Today Sucked
Wheeee, Sucky day, sucky day.... It began with seeing Dustin's arms around Jen 1st thing in the morning. So, then after Kat talked to him, I guess he didnt know why if he cared about me he couldnt decide who to be with. He wished one of us would hate him. I know of a good many ways of making her hate him... but Id need his cooperation first. But I only know of one way to make myself hate him. No matter who Im with I know I will still have feelings for him. FUCKING ASSHOLE GUYS! Why do I let them have so much power over me? Anyways, he says he feels shitty. Well, thats all my doing. If I hadnt been such a stupid ass bitch, he would not have this problem. But, you see, that is just me. I'm going to talk to him.... and depending on the outcome of the talk... Im doing a spell to forget my feelings for him. I want to tlak now, but I cant... I wil tommarrow, I dont care if I have to pry him from Jens fucking arms. I know I could take her... maybe not all her friends too lol but her. Anyways.... I need soome closure. Then, on top of that, mom's so called friends had been tlaking shit about her. Not all of you know, but my father died when I was 4 years old. Havnt had one since. My brother is a weedhead with no direction in his life. My mom is all I have. My aunts... yea, but my mom... I cant explain it. Well, if someone your mom considered a close friend said that she didnt care if my mom died, that she would dance on her grave, youd be PISSED OFF too. So I wasnt sure what to think. To top that off, it was Marya too. And Seth is very big on family and Im not sure what he would do if mom and marya were fighting. Bc if you are sayin shit about my mother, your on my shit list. So Rya would be on my shit list. And that would conflict with Seth. And I love him so fucking much. Actually, earlier I wasnt sure who I missed more, Dustin or Seth. As terrible as this sounds, I do beleive Im fallin for Dusitn. AND IT SUCKS BIG MONKEY ASS CRACK AND BALLS. Anyways..... Gtg
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