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I have nothing to do this weekend and its making me feel sick.
why did I never make any girl friends? why did I miss that essential part of life?
because times like these are what girl friends are for.
its true, I don't really like girls and I would much rather have guy friends, but still...that fell through. And I need someone to be there. But there is no one here.
Literally no one.
where did I go wrong? I'm almost 20 years old and I have no friends.
I'm not blaming it on Jake, by the way.
There's something wrong with me where I can't keep friends. I'm doomed to be alone for the rest of my life, living on top of a hill with a dozen cats.
and I hate cats.
Living is becoming exhausting. I got 11 hours of sleep last night and I'm tired again. I am going to sit upstairs in my bedroom or down here on the computer for 48 freaking hours. It's incredibly depressing.
Another depressing thing is that fall used to be my favorite season. I loved fall. But now I don't, because its beautiful outside, and I have no one to jump in the leaves or pick pumpkins with. I have no halloween plans. No tunnel of retardation this year. No haunted houses, no nothing. It's just bleak on the horizon, and all my dreams are crushed.
He was my dream.
why did I never make any girl friends? why did I miss that essential part of life?
because times like these are what girl friends are for.
its true, I don't really like girls and I would much rather have guy friends, but still...that fell through. And I need someone to be there. But there is no one here.
Literally no one.
where did I go wrong? I'm almost 20 years old and I have no friends.
I'm not blaming it on Jake, by the way.
There's something wrong with me where I can't keep friends. I'm doomed to be alone for the rest of my life, living on top of a hill with a dozen cats.
and I hate cats.
Living is becoming exhausting. I got 11 hours of sleep last night and I'm tired again. I am going to sit upstairs in my bedroom or down here on the computer for 48 freaking hours. It's incredibly depressing.
Another depressing thing is that fall used to be my favorite season. I loved fall. But now I don't, because its beautiful outside, and I have no one to jump in the leaves or pick pumpkins with. I have no halloween plans. No tunnel of retardation this year. No haunted houses, no nothing. It's just bleak on the horizon, and all my dreams are crushed.
He was my dream.