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I wanna cry. things were finally going okay and now their just blah. i thot it was bad enuff with my guy problems (yes me and dre are still goin out) but now things are really bad. itz almost my bday (wednesday). things shudnt be this bad. do i really deserve it? well atleast ill be 17 meaning onli 1 more year til i can get outa my house. i hate it here. he did it again. not like ne1 has a clue wut im talkin bout (xcept maybe jocie) but wth i thot it was over. i finally thot he was done. guess im wrong. 17 hmmm i dont wanna be 17, i wanna be 3. how many times have i sed that b4. when i was 3, even if sumthing was wrong i didnt know it. now i do. i wanna cry. i wanna sleep. but my body has stopped sleeping. i think im physically incabable of it nemore. i think i have a temp to. prolly cuz im so run down. but itz okay cuz im on my way to perfect. i will be perfect someday. someday hmmm. yeah rite. i feel sick. he wants me 2 call. i dont wanna. i think im avoiding him. i keep thinkin abbt the other him, wut if. and jermemy, i talked to him 4 like 2hrs last nite. i havent seen him in almost a month. i miss him. the convo was nice tho. blah stop thinking must be perfect. need cry. damn im out.
~treene
~treene