Have a holly jolly Christmas.
X-mas is so much fun. Although I have not enough money to get a gift for everyone, know that I love you kids anyway. This weekend, I was going to go to that gay ass place called the mall to go X-mas shopping for my mizom, but she grounded me, so I guess she'll have to wait til' later. Heh. Anti-flag is occuring on the twelfth and I cannot believe I'm gonig to miss it. My sister said that if I gave her my money, she would get me an awesome shirt, but.. that isn't anywhere near close to being at the show. :/ So, that's gay. We went to the Morton Ranch H.S. tour today in second period. It was pretty cool, actually, compared to what I was expecting. The building was beautiful, considering it will be trashed in another year's time, and it was so big.. but I still have no desire to go. The band hall was so roomy and it would be nice to have a little armroom while I'm playing my flute, but no. Still no desire. Laura Bunting has to go no matter what, no exceptions. It sucks because she has been my best man since second grade,and now I will be missing her. I have the decision to either stay at Mayde Creek, or go to the new school because I have an older sibling and i can choose to stay with her if I wanna. But I don't want to leave April and Laura with the katy kids, all alone and feeble and such. It would feel wrong. I would feel overpriveleged and that would be unfair to those who had to go to the new school. But, on the other hand, I will have Brigette and Katie. I love those guys. But nothing can replace Laura, and I don't think I will like school that much without her there to humor me and be awesome. I don't know what to do. Each place has its own reasons that urge me to go there. Morton is nice, but Mayde Creek is where I feel more at home. I already know all the faces and I'm finally getting used to the surroundings. It makes me mad though, because I want everyone to stay where they are and everything to stay in its place, like it is now-where it belongs. Laura doesn't want to go to that school. I don't think it's moral to amke her go and desert her friends for a nice, new building full of Katy faces that she is unfamiliar with. She will be pretty much alone, and it would be cruel to allow that to happen. I hope that they can make some kind of weird exception for her because I don't want her to go. I think I want to stay here more, because I am probably most afraid of the new surroundings and the people. But, but, but. I should face my fears. AAAAAAH. I don't know what to do and I'm distraught. Why should us kids be faced with such a difficult decision just because we live on a certain side of the road, next to a new school that matters none to me, and that has horrible school colors that I've already been dragged through once, in junior high, and a mascot that isn't worth fighting for..? Maverick?? Some pig horse cow bull thing that matters none to me. I don't think it is fair to have to carry such a burden and not have the option of keeping Bunting here with me and the rest of her friends. GAH this sucks.