blah,fuck, maybe even god damn
well its around 2:30 on saturday night, the first full day i have been away from school. i am just starting to realize that it was amazing. I already miss all my friends, some a little more then others. But none the less i miss them all. i am almost in tears right now thinking how next year will be fun but it wont be the same. no words can explain the impact on my life that the poeple i have met this year at school have made, thank you. Their are things i am scared about and happy about, and i havent felt this sad in a while. i am happy about camp and no school work and happy about skating and shows and cds and movies. i am sad about missing friends and good times. i have noticed that i make friends at school, leave them to come home and work with other friend then leave them, life it hard sometimes when you have strong feelings about friends. but it all works out becuase if you have a strong friendship it will stand the test of time.......i always feel stupid when it comes to girls and blah blah blah but i wish i had met a girl this year each year gos by and it feels like its harder and harder for me to meet a girl, it just sad.. i dont want to just settle for a girl but i do want somthing... but at some point in life things will come together... well i am tired and sad and miss everyone and i am goign to go to bed and everything i wrote probally wont make sense but it doesnt matter cuz only 2 people know about this and blah....