Rock bottoms where we live....
I dont fucking know anything anymore....Just when I think things are starting to get back to normal in my life and super rad again.. I have to feel so fucking stressed inside. When can I learn just not to give a fuck. I think to myself should I talk things out, no I shouldnt it would ruin things yep most definatly. I feel uneasy in my classes, I know I need to work harder. I keep telling myself study dan.. but I just cant bring myself to do it... It always gets dark before it gets light again... my birthday is in 2 weeks from friday.. i'll be 21.. how crazy I will be an grown up... Also teen weekend is this weekend, Im still thinking Im not going back to camp next summer, Im still pissed off about mary, and others. I love the place but they made me hate myself their. I went into the summer feeling better then ever, knowing myself, but since camp I feel lost and helpless.