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im about to fucking flip. my mom is so fucking crazy. she used to make me think that it was all me. it was me that had the problem. but it's her. i know it is. my dad read ryans email. and it started out- no because i don't need to send that many texts. and then all of a sudden my mom is like flipping out saying that if he starts paying for it that that's just something else that i can throw in her face. Ryan was sooo sick at the beginning of this week. like throwing up and couldn't get out of bed. and he called me and asked me if i would ask my mom if we could go and get him something to drink because he didn't have anything. and my mom said no. and i flipped because he does so much for her. and she couldn't go and get him something to drink?? omg i don't even want to explain the rest. but the one thing that made me fuckin omg.. i was like ya what made me mad was when you said that he's just trying to make me feel guilty.and she was like i heard him talking to you saying that i can't believe you can't come over, i feel so sick bla bla bla. i don't remember what she said exactly. my mom lies out of her ass. and because she's the mom, i can't do anything about it. i was fuckin yelling at her telling her that she lied. and she was like oh so now you're calling me a liar? and i was like YES! because you just LIED!!!! i fucking hate her. i'm so sick and tired of her mind games. she has no idea. if she only heard his voice that day... i seriously cried the rest of the day. because he felt like shit. and i couldn't do anything about it. i felt so bad.. i hate to even think about it.