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hello readers... alll negative 5 of you = ]
well michael and i broke up, awhile ago actually... like june...........
we dont talk much anymore and i really dont want to talk about it.. so why am i talking about it? not sure
so where am i know? still ar home.. 2nd year in college.. well acc
i really want to leave home, and not at the same time
i cant wait to go to tx state and just start my life.
I need a boy, i want a boyfriend so bad, i cant stop thinking about it. michael is way outta the question. tj just seems to want well lets just say "cake and ice cream" (ha for those who remember that). which was fine after michael and i broke up.. but now, it just isnt the same, i want a real realationship
then there is "sparky" (we are going to have lots of codes in this one-not that they arent totally obvious) - sparky is just a friend.. the end. no more no less, and i like it just that way, so im hoping he knows that. We watch one tree hill like all the time and i stay the night at his house sometimes... and nothing happens.. which im super glad about
than there is another boy... lets call him...ike (ha like the hurricane?- it works ha) gosh he is super super sweet and so real and down to earth - and we just happen to of gone to the same highschool.. not that i knew him then. But he is such a gentlemen, did i mention he was hella fine, like suppppperrrrrrrrr cute. oh GAHHHH hes cute, i met him at this partyy... cuteeee.. and than we hung out a couple of times at his apartment once with mara and two of his friends, and the other times just me and him, just talking it was awesomee = ] like im smiling right now just thinking about him. One of the nights i stayed the night at his house, cause it was late.. he offered me his bed and everything.. of course we slept in the ame bed cause i wasnt going to make him sleep on the floor and he wasnt going to let me sleep on the couch hah, nothing happened.. which i would of hoped for a kiss.. but the longer the anticipation the better it will be when it happns.. (or if it happens) ..............two downsides.. well dreams ive had.. one that he had a girlfriend... but i dont think thats for real......... and the other is that he was gay... but i dont think thats real either.. but according to facebook & myspace.. it doesnt have either of that information = [ ... soooo i think the next time i see him, i just going to kiss him, if he kisses back.. thats a good sign.. = ] ... oh we also hung out last wednesday that was fun. yet no kiss.. so now i just wait for another chance.... to just plant one on him.=]
Ive mde some great friends at school, Magan is probably the best (May-gen) we get drunk together.. she likes to be the driver.. she is super reliable.. i love her.. than there alissa who i havent gotten to hang out with much at all. and Brian and Justin.. which they are cool but same with alissa havent hung out with them much. but so life is good.. now just if ike and i started to date.. that would be PERFECT.. did i mention he was super cute? and even though he graduted earlier than idid.. hes just a few months older than i am.. and goes to UT.. okay enough about my fasination about ike = ] *sighhhhh*
okay well i have Lots of homework to do ..by tomorrow haha which is actually today since its 2am
good night everyoneeeee = ]