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It simply hasn't hit me. I know Sarah is dead, but i can't control myself from not believeing it. I thought if i heard it in assembly, i would come to the reality of the news. but i didn't. I felt a tear coming, but i didn't break down. I hate myself for not crying. Maybe I'm just in shock. I'm not sure. I never knew anyone so well as Sarah Adame who died. I never knew anyone that died. I'm not sure what do do with myslef. I try to cry but i can't. If i had a good hard cry then maybe i can let my emotions out, relieve a bit of the shaking and shocked, unbelievable mind and body.
I'm terrified to see Mr. Adame. He's been a reat person, teacher and coach to me for 3 years now. I'm not sure if i can face him the same way again. I just can't believe this news. To me she's not dead, she's still in Texas with her mom. I don't want to be like this, I dont want to deal. I dont want to feel nothing. I want to express an emotion, i want to cry, i want to hit something. i want to believe that she's died so that i can express it and hopefully move on, knowing she's died and not always thinking we will have contact some where down the road....
this is the website on the news about Sarah Adame
http://www.dailysentinel.com/news/content/news/stories/2007/03/17/wreck_0317__3teens_killed.html
I'm terrified to see Mr. Adame. He's been a reat person, teacher and coach to me for 3 years now. I'm not sure if i can face him the same way again. I just can't believe this news. To me she's not dead, she's still in Texas with her mom. I don't want to be like this, I dont want to deal. I dont want to feel nothing. I want to express an emotion, i want to cry, i want to hit something. i want to believe that she's died so that i can express it and hopefully move on, knowing she's died and not always thinking we will have contact some where down the road....
this is the website on the news about Sarah Adame
http://www.dailysentinel.com/news/content/news/stories/2007/03/17/wreck_0317__3teens_killed.html