A Dozen Years
This October ((2012)) it'll officially be 12 years since I was diagnosed with RA. I have had many, MANY UPS & DOWNS... But I'm still here... Pushing and fighting and coping and accepting... Struggling, suffering, learning, adapting ... Refusing to give up, determined to rise above this *thing* that turned my world upside down and nailed me HARD!
Every single day has its challenges. Every day is a different battle. I do what I can, when I can. I can't control what happens to me and it takes every single cell in my body to keep ME ((my "essence", my spirit, my soul, my true being)) in tact. Against all odds, constantly going to hell and back:
~ I REMAIN ~
We mustn't allow pain and suffering to kill our spirit. Optimism can be a dangerous thing, so my motto is: "hope for the best, prepare for the worst"... Attitude is very important and it is something we can all do something about. A negative attitude doesn't get anybody anywhere. Allowing misery to consume us only contaminates our minds, emotions, surroundings, relationships and experiences.
We have to accept that "shit happens" and life is not everything we'd like it to be. Accepting reality is one of the toughest things I've had to do. I struggle with it everyday and I may never get used to the never-ending blows life throws at me, but I'm prepared to keep getting back up. Sometimes it takes me a while to gather myself and start getting back up... And sometimes I don't even make it all the way up because halfway up I get knocked back down on my ass. But it's ok. I can't give up, I refuse to stay down. Even when I can't physically get up ~ I do what I can to keep my spirits high. Nothing lasts forever. Better days will come.
No matter how bad things get we must always remember that THINGS *CAN* ALWAYS BE A LOT WORSE! We must learn to count our blessings. Every day may not be good, but there IS something good in everyday. We just have to look. For every 100 "bad things" there's at least 1 good thing in the midst of things.
We have to work with what we've got and not get lost in the darkness.
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