been a while
yeah i guess its been quite a long time since i wrote in this thingy oh well. not like anyone reads it everyday to see what i happened in my life and if some one does well then sweety you need help.haha.im so fucking tiered!i went out for a little last night nothing too much fun.and got home and talked to adam online and we were talkin bout how in a few months hes goin back to florida for the whole summer.i dont know how we got on to that topic but we did. oh yeah cause mark said i was replaceable and i was upset bout that and i actually believed him and thought adam felt the same.but apparently he doesnt im just scared shitless of him leaven in less than 80days.yeah i took the time to count.and so ig uess everything made me all emotional and i ended up having a panick attack and 1am which blew cause it was pretty bad.and i couldnt take my meds right away which hurt even woarse.god i could hardly breath and when i did it hurt a lot.but adam staid with me to calm me down which helped a hell of alot cause he was being adam.always making me lauph.but i felt bad cause it wasnt going away right away and he had to get up at 3 so he could go to his drill team thing at 4am.and he got like 2hrs of sleep if that cause he imed me and left me a message at 2:52am so i feel really bad cause if he does bad today it will be all my fault and like i will feel so bad cause i know how much it means to him.well im goin to bed the new medicine has kicked in so write shit later.