Dont leave me, all alone.
Just drop me off at home
Pssh. everyones got boyfriends! and i am sure i sound like a complainy little whiner bitch, but frankly i dont give a fuck. :D i want a boyfriend! is that so wrong? i would love mark, paul, eric, or jake, but will i get any of them? no. everyones got a boyfriend. i could list about a 100 people: Ginny, Adam, Meghan, JP, Alix, Bert, Fallon, Paige, Alahna, Cosette, Nick T, ugh i dont even want to go on. Whats so wrong with me? i guess im annoying and loud and ugly, so yeah i guess thats all. *shrug* *sigh* this sucks man. Pauls going to go out with Amanda. that is going to break my heart, really. and i will end up cutting again..
and ill be fine
Which has been going good actually. i havent really had a major urge to cut, although i would love to again. but i saidi would stop. i realized i needed to badly. but i miss the marks. there is no scars on my arm even, and my thigh is fading already. i guess i didnt cut deep enough. but it would be stupid to cut again deep just to get a few good scars wouldnt it? it would..
i havent been this scared, in a long time
Alaina and Katie, closer than ever i guess. probably bonded more cause of my dipshit descion to say i didnt care about Alaina's feelings if i went out with Paul. so now i promised her i wouldnt go out with him. so now even if i get the chance, i cant! Growl. i dont even know if i can still go to Blink182 with Laina now. god, i suck ass. i ruin everything.
and im so unprepared, so heres your valentine
Sarina invited me to sleep over this weekend. but i doubt that will work out, and even if it does, im sure alaina and katie would be there. id be the extra wheel again. *shrug* anyways, im out, i got a lot of homework to do. but i really like live journal, woo!
..This worlds an ugly place, but youre so beautiful to me..
-Blink182
Pssh. everyones got boyfriends! and i am sure i sound like a complainy little whiner bitch, but frankly i dont give a fuck. :D i want a boyfriend! is that so wrong? i would love mark, paul, eric, or jake, but will i get any of them? no. everyones got a boyfriend. i could list about a 100 people: Ginny, Adam, Meghan, JP, Alix, Bert, Fallon, Paige, Alahna, Cosette, Nick T, ugh i dont even want to go on. Whats so wrong with me? i guess im annoying and loud and ugly, so yeah i guess thats all. *shrug* *sigh* this sucks man. Pauls going to go out with Amanda. that is going to break my heart, really. and i will end up cutting again..
and ill be fine
Which has been going good actually. i havent really had a major urge to cut, although i would love to again. but i saidi would stop. i realized i needed to badly. but i miss the marks. there is no scars on my arm even, and my thigh is fading already. i guess i didnt cut deep enough. but it would be stupid to cut again deep just to get a few good scars wouldnt it? it would..
i havent been this scared, in a long time
Alaina and Katie, closer than ever i guess. probably bonded more cause of my dipshit descion to say i didnt care about Alaina's feelings if i went out with Paul. so now i promised her i wouldnt go out with him. so now even if i get the chance, i cant! Growl. i dont even know if i can still go to Blink182 with Laina now. god, i suck ass. i ruin everything.
and im so unprepared, so heres your valentine
Sarina invited me to sleep over this weekend. but i doubt that will work out, and even if it does, im sure alaina and katie would be there. id be the extra wheel again. *shrug* anyways, im out, i got a lot of homework to do. but i really like live journal, woo!
..This worlds an ugly place, but youre so beautiful to me..
-Blink182