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so today was orientation at pcc. met a guy named chris, he's majoring in film. that's kewl. i'm doing the cosmetology gig.
ginnia and chelsea were there. i was hoping i wouldn't see thme. it rips my heart to shreds when i see them. i couldn't acknowledge them, or i'd start crying.
drove by the house for rent, wasn't working for me. so i am hoping to find a roommate who can afford 500 a month so we can get a nice apartment.
to be perfectly honest, i am scared. i turn 18 tomorrow and i was supposed to move out but i have no where to go. everyone is gone. lately, everyone has disappeared. i'm a loner again, i guess by choice.
jason thinks i am cheating on him... i would never cheat on another boyfriend ever again, it's not right. he's been out of reach for a few days and i am wondering if he went down again. my cell phone is even sitting right next to me as i type.
talked to tim today. he's going to cslb. luckie. he can't find a roommate either so we decided i should have been a guy and we'd be set. lol. i really care about that kid. if the greater good is showing me who i should be with it'd prolly be him. not because of anything physical. it's just we connect. he's my brother in the greater good and i will always love him.
[i'll never forget when rico told him and i that we should get married]
he was speechless when i told him i have embraced girlie-hood, yet i still don't understand them.
which leads me to wonder what my purpose will be in life. why did the greater good create me the way that i am? it will unfold in it's own time i am sure of it.
i miss my intellectual circle [rico, nafen, david, nicole, tim, edward, thomas] is it strange that i get along mainly with guys? they just make more sense [at least the intellectual ones].
.something to weigh and consider.
ginnia and chelsea were there. i was hoping i wouldn't see thme. it rips my heart to shreds when i see them. i couldn't acknowledge them, or i'd start crying.
drove by the house for rent, wasn't working for me. so i am hoping to find a roommate who can afford 500 a month so we can get a nice apartment.
to be perfectly honest, i am scared. i turn 18 tomorrow and i was supposed to move out but i have no where to go. everyone is gone. lately, everyone has disappeared. i'm a loner again, i guess by choice.
jason thinks i am cheating on him... i would never cheat on another boyfriend ever again, it's not right. he's been out of reach for a few days and i am wondering if he went down again. my cell phone is even sitting right next to me as i type.
talked to tim today. he's going to cslb. luckie. he can't find a roommate either so we decided i should have been a guy and we'd be set. lol. i really care about that kid. if the greater good is showing me who i should be with it'd prolly be him. not because of anything physical. it's just we connect. he's my brother in the greater good and i will always love him.
[i'll never forget when rico told him and i that we should get married]
he was speechless when i told him i have embraced girlie-hood, yet i still don't understand them.
which leads me to wonder what my purpose will be in life. why did the greater good create me the way that i am? it will unfold in it's own time i am sure of it.
i miss my intellectual circle [rico, nafen, david, nicole, tim, edward, thomas] is it strange that i get along mainly with guys? they just make more sense [at least the intellectual ones].
.something to weigh and consider.