you'll stay alone forever if you wait for the right time... what are you hoping for...
the other girl... im not sure what she thinks of me... how she feels about me... if anything at all... maybe thats just wishful thinking... she must think im a dickhead... she smacks the truth in my face and i run away from it... im so scared of it that it got me angry... i wanna try to move on but its so hard for a person like me... but believe me i wanna try... but time slots are short and scarce and you know exactly what i mean... i wanna make it work so hard... but it seems almost impossible now... who knows what passes through her head with all the things going on in her life... all the doctors and hospital visits... her last experience with love... i wanna help her too... but am i the right person for it... i mean she probably hates me right now... cause i barely talk to her... and she must think that i do it on purpose to her... but what am i supposed to do if i never see you... how can you develop feelings for a person you never see... i feel so horrible right now... tell me what you honestly think of me... and you know who im talking to... i dont want her to be number one in my heart anymore... help me change that... please... tell me what i should do... i know this is so much for me to ask for... oh god... im just going to stop here before i make an even bigger fool of myself...