While driving home yesterday from work, I had this odd flashback of Rocky...it's not like it was a bad one, it was good...and I started crying. Why? I don't fucking know. Maybe it's because I try too hard to think that he was a good person when he really isn't. No one believes me, and they think I'm crazy. I was with that man for 5 years, I think I know him better than any of those people would. "Oh, but Rocky is sooooo sweet". Yeah, don't you mean he fucks you good? slut.
Well, this just proves I need to get him out of my head and I also need to stop thinking about us splitting up.Rick is right, I talk about him too much. It's been over a year, I should be done with this...
Morgueasm canceled the show for Sunday due to assholes and children. It's okay, we all went to a dive bar and eat and drink then back to Xines to drink more. Then home. Dave Brockie [from Gwar] was supposed to come by, but he was busy fucking midgets <3 The band promised him a lap dance form a whore they picked up on the street, the whore was me.
I'm going to Maryland Friday for a show, and to hang out with some friends I know up there. That should keep my mind at ease.
The movie Morgueasm is in is up and running, in which I will be posting that here soon. Until then, here is a Morgueasm picture for you all to enjoy.
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