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Well i never update... and im prally not gonna update either but i thought id say that me and ben are near perfect now... we dont go out... but we pretty much concider us going out... its just hard to trust him again enough to go back out with him cause of everything thats happend in the past... but idk... i love him... and he loves me...
everythings so different... like the way he talks about us is completly turned around... he actually talks about long term now whereas before he just took it day by day never knowing if we'd be together at the end of the week :-/... right now hes so good... but its hard to believe that someone realy changed... and im not one for 2nd chances... and this is his like... 100th!!!
idk... all i DO know is that i love him...
the thing is... if he really does mean everything he says whats gonna happen??? we're really gonna move in together??? we're really gonna be together for a reallly long time???... hes my 1st serious boyfriend... everything is so right with him... but how do i know if its "right" enough..??? plus theres someone else that i cant get off of my mind... but nothing could ever come of us... especially right now so whats the point...??? and i feel bad because i dont want to hurt ben by telling him that i have a little spark of feelings for someone else... nothing compared to him but... AGh idk...
life is confusing....
o and i hate school!!!
:-D
♥Kalie
everythings so different... like the way he talks about us is completly turned around... he actually talks about long term now whereas before he just took it day by day never knowing if we'd be together at the end of the week :-/... right now hes so good... but its hard to believe that someone realy changed... and im not one for 2nd chances... and this is his like... 100th!!!
idk... all i DO know is that i love him...
the thing is... if he really does mean everything he says whats gonna happen??? we're really gonna move in together??? we're really gonna be together for a reallly long time???... hes my 1st serious boyfriend... everything is so right with him... but how do i know if its "right" enough..??? plus theres someone else that i cant get off of my mind... but nothing could ever come of us... especially right now so whats the point...??? and i feel bad because i dont want to hurt ben by telling him that i have a little spark of feelings for someone else... nothing compared to him but... AGh idk...
life is confusing....
o and i hate school!!!
:-D
♥Kalie