I'm so sick of everything
Okay, so it all started last Monday. Yes, it was Monday. He didn't call. He didn't call me all week. I talked to him once, and he said he'd call back. Did he? No. I mean, it's okay -- it's not like we're dating or in a relationship that I know of, so why should I be getting upset about it? I had a really stressful week with school and what not. Friday after school I went down Camden with Laine -- which is like 400 miles away from home. I had a great time. We watched our team beat the number one team in the state. It was very nerve racking, but overall -- a great game. We celebrated my brother's birthday yesterday. Then last night, HE finally called. We talked for about twenty minutes and he was really tired so we got off the phone so he could sleep, which says nothing for me because I couldn't sleep for the life of me. This morning we had to do some lame ass gateway practice in chemistry and everyone just BSed it. It was so freaking lame. Then, we had a test in math. In chorus I found out some terrible terrible awful shitty news. I found out my friend Jamal, who is one of the nicest guys I have ever met, died this weekend. I really can't believe it. He was such an amazing guy and I don't know what to do or how to feel because no one close to me has died before. It's really truly depressing. I almost broke down atleast five times today. I did have a break down and no one was there. I was alone. It was an awful feeling. I needed him, and he was too busy for me. I still need him, but I have a strong feeling he won't be calling me unless I call him or bug him about calling me. I really don't want to be at home, nor do I want to go to school. If I can, next weekend (not this weekend -- the next) I'm probably going to Nic*Nak's. I need to be with my best friend. I need my best friend. & even though she's miles away and busy SHE found time to call me and check on me. I guess my expectations are just WAY too high. I don't know. I'm just very down right now.