Go ahead, tell me what you really think
According to something I did the other day it says that I am more extroverted than introverted. Hmm...so let's see how that plays out.
In a sense, my heart hurts. My head hurts because my heart hurts. It's this terribly vicious cycle seeking to bring JessHall down.
I've been contemplating things lately. I know that there is more of a handful of people out there that have used "I dont want to hurt you" as an excuse to get out of being with someone. But think of this. Why do we say "I dont want to hurt you"? If you like the person enough then there should be no clear reason in your head as to why you would say "I dont want to hurt you". If you say this there has got to be a reason or something as potential that would hurt this person. Possibly the fact that you dont really like them and you're just too nice of a person to reject them. But hey, it would hurt less. This all just came to me. My thoughts are jumbled. More than anything I think most people just need to look inside themselves and do what they really want. Say what they really feel. Stop being so effin scared. If we never took chances we wouldnt be who we are. Cause I sure as heck know I took a chance on being me. And if things dont work out, they dont work out. But there is a reason for everything. I trully believe that God hand picked every single person that is constant in my life, and so there is a reason for them being here. Some people came into my life at different points and when I was asking for different things. I may not know the reason why everyone is my life yet. But I have feelings, and Im a stupid girl.
Do you ever think of me? Do you ever ask yourself if your life would be different if JessHall werent a part of it, or a part of it at one time? Do you thank God (or anything else) that I am part of your life? Do you think you would be a happier person if I werent a part of your life? What would you do if I werent around anymore?
Tell the people you love (or heart <3) that you love them (or heart them) everyday, even if they never say it back. There might come a point when you dont get that chance (and it may not be a result of death). And when that day comes make them think about what could have been, or what they missed out on. They may never think of it. But you knew it all along. Be happy with yourself. You were created the way God wanted you. Never look and say I wish....If there is no one in the world that likes you, like yourself. It's attractive. There was a time when I hated who I was. But I obviously have likeable qualities because I have the best friends anyone could ask for. They keep me around when I wouldnt keep me around. Im annoying, Im pathetic, I dont think clearly all the time. But, I'm awesome, funny, and I have great hair. They love me for all this. Take the step and be risky. Think of you.
Someting that the lead singer of Letter Kills, Matty (<3), said at their last show here just came to me. "For all of your life just remember that there is someone chasing after you so be thankful and love and take care of each other."
Well said.
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