so lately i've been feeling like i dont belong, like the ground is not mine to walk upon.
so john and i are officially going out. cheer. cheer. i think paige is covering up how increadibly pissed she is at me. i feel really bad. im happy, but its kind of killing it.
why cant i ever be happy with what i get? i should be happy. i have mixed feelings about all of this. its almost like.. im better off alone. i dont want to drag people down with my shit. like.. i dont deserve them. i dont want him to see the real me. -shut up self-
okay, so i am happy. i know i am. somewhere. i am happy. the only thing i dont like about john is his family. but i can get past that. hes a hell of a lot better than scott in all aspects. not a smoker. not a drinker. not an asshole. wow. im happier again. thank you. good night. and good bye.
why cant i ever be happy with what i get? i should be happy. i have mixed feelings about all of this. its almost like.. im better off alone. i dont want to drag people down with my shit. like.. i dont deserve them. i dont want him to see the real me. -shut up self-
okay, so i am happy. i know i am. somewhere. i am happy. the only thing i dont like about john is his family. but i can get past that. hes a hell of a lot better than scott in all aspects. not a smoker. not a drinker. not an asshole. wow. im happier again. thank you. good night. and good bye.