Insomnia rock on
Sleeeep damn it! just fucking fall asleep. why is it that when somoene else is displeased with me, i am the one who cannot function. i'm the one who gets sick. i'm the one who doesn't sleep. i wish i had fight club right now. i keep thinking of that line about when you're insomniac you're never really asleep and you're never really awake or something like that. i can feel myself slipping into my zombie mode already and it's only been one night. i read a shakespeare play and then some poe short stories, wrote a journalism article on a gay bar, laid in bed staring into the darkness, watched countless music videos online, watched mean girls, considered watching it again, cried, threw rocks in the river, began decorating my kappa tau epsilon associate binder (though i have no materials and didn't get very far), thought over my life's purpose, thought of my grandma (really random i know), missed my mom, emailed my dad (also random), checked my yahoo email for the first time in three months or so (67 messages), IM'd almost everyone online and available, read my neclace scroll, talked to my roomie, helped jason with his lab report, but damn it i couldn't sleep for the life of me! practice in about two hours then breakfast then classes. hopefully i'll fall asleep at some point during the day. i take that back i don't have the time, really...i have lunch w the sisters, play practice, two meetings, a ton of homework, some errands, two classes...it doesn't seem so bad when i write it out...i need to start journaling again...in my regular journal especially during times when i would probably end up going overboard on here or xanga. yea some things are meant to be kept private...wish i would have done that more often...oh well...hind-sight is 20:20, right oh man there's a crumb under the question mark key on my keyboard...crap...
well bye
well bye