I'm feeling old....
So one of my best friends that I've known the majority of my life is having her baby shower tomorrow....
She's been pregnant for 8 months but the reality is just starting to kick in for me. Perhaps its because I don't see her nearly as much as I should.
This girl that I used to finger paint with, the girl who I rode the school bus with for 10 years, the girl who I've thought of as my little sister (although she's 6 months older than me) is all grown up and no longer needs me to look out for her. Maybe she didn't ever need me in the first place, but I like to think that she did. I like to feel needed. It's strange but I almost feel like a mother who is letting her daughter go off into the world on her own for the first time.
I've spent most of my life and my entire relationship with this girl being the voice of strength and reason. For me, she has been the voice of grace and innocence. Although in many aspects we may be complete opposites and you might never imagine the two of us to be friends, I'd like to think we balance each other perfectly. Yin and Yang.
Nonetheless, Its time for me to let go... She has a wonderful fiance who I know will take care of her and their baby girl the way they deserve to be treated.
Deep Breath...
I wasn't even this nervous and anxious when my sister had her baby.
Just call me "Auntie Jandel"
She's been pregnant for 8 months but the reality is just starting to kick in for me. Perhaps its because I don't see her nearly as much as I should.
This girl that I used to finger paint with, the girl who I rode the school bus with for 10 years, the girl who I've thought of as my little sister (although she's 6 months older than me) is all grown up and no longer needs me to look out for her. Maybe she didn't ever need me in the first place, but I like to think that she did. I like to feel needed. It's strange but I almost feel like a mother who is letting her daughter go off into the world on her own for the first time.
I've spent most of my life and my entire relationship with this girl being the voice of strength and reason. For me, she has been the voice of grace and innocence. Although in many aspects we may be complete opposites and you might never imagine the two of us to be friends, I'd like to think we balance each other perfectly. Yin and Yang.
Nonetheless, Its time for me to let go... She has a wonderful fiance who I know will take care of her and their baby girl the way they deserve to be treated.
Deep Breath...
I wasn't even this nervous and anxious when my sister had her baby.
Just call me "Auntie Jandel"