Update
1. I really like Mike alot.
2. I miss Jason.
3. I'm feeling sick.
4. I go to ARC and SCC now
5. Valentines Day sucks and is a commercial holiday (but that still doesn't stop me from wanting a Valentine)
6. Cheating is bad, and it happens. Most people are in denial about it. No one is cheating on me because I am in a friendship not a relationship. But if I were in this predicament I would definately be questionable. I think that people at times get a little to comfortable pushing the individual rather than the relationship while both are equally important. But at times I think that a persons emotions blind them to the possibility that someone could run away with their heart just to kill it. ( this isme being a pessismist again)
7. A little pain never hurt anyone, but it can kill you if you let it.
8. The 70's were great except for the clothes.
9. I want to learn how to break dance........still.
10.The people at the Mexican place never give me my fries.
11.Fate is real, real fucked up.
12. Sometimes I wonder just what the future holds in store for me. After a long conversation with Jen the other night I realized that I don't ever want to date another person that I don't deem as marriage material. Isn't that crazy? That at 19 years old I am looking for marriage material. To be honest I think it is just an excuse to torture myself. It is just an excuse for me to turn people down and to push people away. Don't get me wrong I want to be married and I want to have a family and every single day my body drops hints that it is ready to carry that torch, but I am too afraid of getting hurt again. So rather than give people chances I let them get so close and then I close up like a shell the second I feel the slightest form of rejection. I know that's not healthy, I know I need to work on that.......but honestly......I don't know if it worth it.
13. A part of me knows that I am bound to end up as an old lady with tons of cats, which sucks because I am allergic to cats.
14. I often think that none of my friends would be there for me if I really needed them and look at myself often as a loner.
15. I don't think anyone understands me.
16. I am truly much more emotional than I appear to be.
17. I am not as strong as I appear to be, there are honestly few things in this world that keep me going........and I will never tell anyone what they are out of fear that they will take them away. But in the end if someone tries to take these things away then I will kill because they are 100% worth fighting for.....
18. My sister is here and I really don't want to see or talk to her. She is really really annoying
19. I am the most responsible and logical person in my parents house.
20. Jen and Brad are here and now I have to go.
2. I miss Jason.
3. I'm feeling sick.
4. I go to ARC and SCC now
5. Valentines Day sucks and is a commercial holiday (but that still doesn't stop me from wanting a Valentine)
6. Cheating is bad, and it happens. Most people are in denial about it. No one is cheating on me because I am in a friendship not a relationship. But if I were in this predicament I would definately be questionable. I think that people at times get a little to comfortable pushing the individual rather than the relationship while both are equally important. But at times I think that a persons emotions blind them to the possibility that someone could run away with their heart just to kill it. ( this isme being a pessismist again)
7. A little pain never hurt anyone, but it can kill you if you let it.
8. The 70's were great except for the clothes.
9. I want to learn how to break dance........still.
10.The people at the Mexican place never give me my fries.
11.Fate is real, real fucked up.
12. Sometimes I wonder just what the future holds in store for me. After a long conversation with Jen the other night I realized that I don't ever want to date another person that I don't deem as marriage material. Isn't that crazy? That at 19 years old I am looking for marriage material. To be honest I think it is just an excuse to torture myself. It is just an excuse for me to turn people down and to push people away. Don't get me wrong I want to be married and I want to have a family and every single day my body drops hints that it is ready to carry that torch, but I am too afraid of getting hurt again. So rather than give people chances I let them get so close and then I close up like a shell the second I feel the slightest form of rejection. I know that's not healthy, I know I need to work on that.......but honestly......I don't know if it worth it.
13. A part of me knows that I am bound to end up as an old lady with tons of cats, which sucks because I am allergic to cats.
14. I often think that none of my friends would be there for me if I really needed them and look at myself often as a loner.
15. I don't think anyone understands me.
16. I am truly much more emotional than I appear to be.
17. I am not as strong as I appear to be, there are honestly few things in this world that keep me going........and I will never tell anyone what they are out of fear that they will take them away. But in the end if someone tries to take these things away then I will kill because they are 100% worth fighting for.....
18. My sister is here and I really don't want to see or talk to her. She is really really annoying
19. I am the most responsible and logical person in my parents house.
20. Jen and Brad are here and now I have to go.