Fuck Sickness
Fuck being sick, fucking fuck fuck fuck. FUCK. I can't breathe out my nose, I have a headache, I feel all achy, and I work all night tomorrow. 7-1:30am. Fuccccck.
So, I'm eating this amazing Taco Salad right now from Taco Bell because I didn't want anything too heavy. It has meat and beans in it. Don't get me wrong it's good, but I am afraid it might not end up agreeing with me later and taking a vacation from it's home in my stomach if you know what I mean.
So lately. I've been doing nothing. I hung out with Brittany a few times this week. Which is nice. It's always nice seeing your best friend. ::AHEM JAY:: Yeah. And Kelly. But I don't have to cough or ahem for Kelly, she already knows :). But she's getting ready for Poland. I am excited for her. She leaves a few days after her Birthday. I have no clue what to get her. I should ask. So. Kelly, since I know you read this, what do you want for your birthday? And the following week is my sisters and Jay's birthday. I have no idea what to get Jay. But my sister is easy. Probably because she's my sister. Ha hah. You know, I get mad and annoyed at my sister a lot, but really truthfully, I'd die without her. I'm getting teary eyed here.
My family is so messed up and sometimes I feel alone, but, she's usually there for me. There are few people that have always been there for me. I don't even have to make a list, because you guys know who you are. And I want to thank you for it. With a few people, I sometimes feel like I am just there to be made fun of. But that's just how I am. Maybe one day I won't be so paranoid with people, and not be so sensitive. I think it ultimately comes down to my personal image of myself. And I am working to change that.
I went to the Wal-Mart interview the other day, and I did the best I could, and I think I have a really good chance at getting this job. Full time, 32-40 hours a week. If I work more than 40 I get paid time and a half. $8.50 an hour to start plus whatever I sell. Etc. It's in the portrait studio. SO I will be doing photography, which will be a good job for me since I love photography.
I started school on Monday, it's such an easy class. It's like, 9th grade 10th grade math. I wish someone would have told me that before I spent $375 on it. Oh well. It's good to review I guess, and now I will have my requirements out of the way for when I want to transfer to Ferris State. Whenever that is.
I have been calculating some things, and it looks like if I have this job at Wal-Mart, I will be able to get a car within 2 months, like, a really nice car. And afford car insurance, as well as rent and food and cable and etc. So, I say by September, if I have this job, I will most definitely be moving out. I am sure my dad won't like that, but, I don't want to live here. Yeah, sure, it's cheaper. But I want to live under my own rules. And in order for that to happen, I have to move out. Plus, my house depresses me and makes me sick, because my parents smoke, and they fight, it just sucks. The people I am moving in with don't smoke. Well, Paul does but he's trying to quit, and if he smokes while we're there he said he'd smoke outside. Which is good. I know my parents probably won't like that I am moving in with guys, but let me tell you, they are much easier to live with. When I stayed at Camp one summer, I was with all guys. It was so easy. They take quick showers, they generally clean their mess, they won't steal your make-up or your clothes, they aren't bitches, they won't steal your boyfriend, and they are generally more laid back. Sure, I would love to move in with Brittany, but, when you move in with your best friend, you'll end up hating them, and it won't be the same. And I don't want it to turn out that way with Brittany because I love her. We are connected in a way that no one will ever understand. Same with Jay. Don't get me wrong, I am really close to all of the rest of my best friends, it's just different with those 2, and I couldn't even tell you why.
Me and Brittany have been trying to design a tattoo for us to get, as a friendship thing. I have a lot of good ideas, but, she wants it simple. I have a feeling it will end up being different designs that say the same thing. Because what I want is probably a lot more than she does. That's okay.
So, I work tomorrow, 7-1:30. I work Saturday from 6-9:30, and then after I am supposed to hang out with Brittany. I am not sure if Joe and Jay are coming too, either way. Sunday I am supposed to be hanging out with Teh Brown, but that's if he doesn't ditch me for his girlfriend again.
Next Week:
Monday: School 8 am-10:30. Work 6-12:30am.
Tuesday: School 8 am-10:30; Chapter 1 test. Afterwards nothing.
Wednesday: School 8 am-10:30, Work 4-8
Thursday: School 8 am-10:30, Afterwards nothing*
Friday: Work 5-10*
So the asterisk's. My cousin Jay (Ha ha) is having his graduation party on Saturday, and graduates on Sunday. Problem is he lives wayyyyy up North. So we would have to leave Friday. I asked Lauren to switch Her Thursday for my Friday, but she said she took Friday off so she could go see X-Men 3. Hmmm Let's see. Cousin graduating, X-Men 3. She said she would consider it. If not, then I'll die. I never see my cousin Jay. :( .
So. That all depends on my Weekend as well. If I find out tomorrow, I'll update here. If that happens, then I won't be able to give Kelly her gift until Sunday, which isss...the 29th or something. Because I don't get paid til Friday. Or I can give it to her when she gets back. Hm.
I love the Wedding Singer. I just got done watching it.
Weeee.
Soooo I pretty much ♥ Shawn. He needs to move herrrrreeeee.
This summer I have a vacation (as of now) from July 24- August 6th. If I get this job at Wal Mart, I have to se if they will let me take it off. If not then I will be very very sad. Because me and Joe want to take a road trip to California. That's where my Shey is, and Near my Sarah, and that's where Shawn livesss. That and I wanted to go see Sarah-Amalia in Toronto, because that's where she's moving. Might be a little hard to get there though.
If not, then that's okay, there is always Spring Break next year. Or whenever.
August 15th I turn 19. It's so surreal. And I've been out of High School going on 2 years. That's insane. Life is going by so fast. In the fall I plan on starting my Major at Schoolcraft. A new step in my life. In August I'll be looking at apartments. That in itself will be amazing.
I just hope that I can keep with this diet I started. No Bread. No Pop. No candy. Well. Occasional candy, like 1 candy a week. I like me some candy. But, bike rides, working out. Juice Gatorade and water. Mostly water.
Maybe I'll even find a Boyfriend...If I'm lucky
Well I'm going to bed. Again. I will be sleeping all day tomorrow. No school Yeahhhhhh. Then work all night. Boooooo.
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So, I'm eating this amazing Taco Salad right now from Taco Bell because I didn't want anything too heavy. It has meat and beans in it. Don't get me wrong it's good, but I am afraid it might not end up agreeing with me later and taking a vacation from it's home in my stomach if you know what I mean.
So lately. I've been doing nothing. I hung out with Brittany a few times this week. Which is nice. It's always nice seeing your best friend. ::AHEM JAY:: Yeah. And Kelly. But I don't have to cough or ahem for Kelly, she already knows :). But she's getting ready for Poland. I am excited for her. She leaves a few days after her Birthday. I have no clue what to get her. I should ask. So. Kelly, since I know you read this, what do you want for your birthday? And the following week is my sisters and Jay's birthday. I have no idea what to get Jay. But my sister is easy. Probably because she's my sister. Ha hah. You know, I get mad and annoyed at my sister a lot, but really truthfully, I'd die without her. I'm getting teary eyed here.
My family is so messed up and sometimes I feel alone, but, she's usually there for me. There are few people that have always been there for me. I don't even have to make a list, because you guys know who you are. And I want to thank you for it. With a few people, I sometimes feel like I am just there to be made fun of. But that's just how I am. Maybe one day I won't be so paranoid with people, and not be so sensitive. I think it ultimately comes down to my personal image of myself. And I am working to change that.
I went to the Wal-Mart interview the other day, and I did the best I could, and I think I have a really good chance at getting this job. Full time, 32-40 hours a week. If I work more than 40 I get paid time and a half. $8.50 an hour to start plus whatever I sell. Etc. It's in the portrait studio. SO I will be doing photography, which will be a good job for me since I love photography.
I started school on Monday, it's such an easy class. It's like, 9th grade 10th grade math. I wish someone would have told me that before I spent $375 on it. Oh well. It's good to review I guess, and now I will have my requirements out of the way for when I want to transfer to Ferris State. Whenever that is.
I have been calculating some things, and it looks like if I have this job at Wal-Mart, I will be able to get a car within 2 months, like, a really nice car. And afford car insurance, as well as rent and food and cable and etc. So, I say by September, if I have this job, I will most definitely be moving out. I am sure my dad won't like that, but, I don't want to live here. Yeah, sure, it's cheaper. But I want to live under my own rules. And in order for that to happen, I have to move out. Plus, my house depresses me and makes me sick, because my parents smoke, and they fight, it just sucks. The people I am moving in with don't smoke. Well, Paul does but he's trying to quit, and if he smokes while we're there he said he'd smoke outside. Which is good. I know my parents probably won't like that I am moving in with guys, but let me tell you, they are much easier to live with. When I stayed at Camp one summer, I was with all guys. It was so easy. They take quick showers, they generally clean their mess, they won't steal your make-up or your clothes, they aren't bitches, they won't steal your boyfriend, and they are generally more laid back. Sure, I would love to move in with Brittany, but, when you move in with your best friend, you'll end up hating them, and it won't be the same. And I don't want it to turn out that way with Brittany because I love her. We are connected in a way that no one will ever understand. Same with Jay. Don't get me wrong, I am really close to all of the rest of my best friends, it's just different with those 2, and I couldn't even tell you why.
Me and Brittany have been trying to design a tattoo for us to get, as a friendship thing. I have a lot of good ideas, but, she wants it simple. I have a feeling it will end up being different designs that say the same thing. Because what I want is probably a lot more than she does. That's okay.
So, I work tomorrow, 7-1:30. I work Saturday from 6-9:30, and then after I am supposed to hang out with Brittany. I am not sure if Joe and Jay are coming too, either way. Sunday I am supposed to be hanging out with Teh Brown, but that's if he doesn't ditch me for his girlfriend again.
Next Week:
Monday: School 8 am-10:30. Work 6-12:30am.
Tuesday: School 8 am-10:30; Chapter 1 test. Afterwards nothing.
Wednesday: School 8 am-10:30, Work 4-8
Thursday: School 8 am-10:30, Afterwards nothing*
Friday: Work 5-10*
So the asterisk's. My cousin Jay (Ha ha) is having his graduation party on Saturday, and graduates on Sunday. Problem is he lives wayyyyy up North. So we would have to leave Friday. I asked Lauren to switch Her Thursday for my Friday, but she said she took Friday off so she could go see X-Men 3. Hmmm Let's see. Cousin graduating, X-Men 3. She said she would consider it. If not, then I'll die. I never see my cousin Jay. :( .
So. That all depends on my Weekend as well. If I find out tomorrow, I'll update here. If that happens, then I won't be able to give Kelly her gift until Sunday, which isss...the 29th or something. Because I don't get paid til Friday. Or I can give it to her when she gets back. Hm.
I love the Wedding Singer. I just got done watching it.
Weeee.
Soooo I pretty much ♥ Shawn. He needs to move herrrrreeeee.
This summer I have a vacation (as of now) from July 24- August 6th. If I get this job at Wal Mart, I have to se if they will let me take it off. If not then I will be very very sad. Because me and Joe want to take a road trip to California. That's where my Shey is, and Near my Sarah, and that's where Shawn livesss. That and I wanted to go see Sarah-Amalia in Toronto, because that's where she's moving. Might be a little hard to get there though.
If not, then that's okay, there is always Spring Break next year. Or whenever.
August 15th I turn 19. It's so surreal. And I've been out of High School going on 2 years. That's insane. Life is going by so fast. In the fall I plan on starting my Major at Schoolcraft. A new step in my life. In August I'll be looking at apartments. That in itself will be amazing.
I just hope that I can keep with this diet I started. No Bread. No Pop. No candy. Well. Occasional candy, like 1 candy a week. I like me some candy. But, bike rides, working out. Juice Gatorade and water. Mostly water.
Maybe I'll even find a Boyfriend...If I'm lucky
Well I'm going to bed. Again. I will be sleeping all day tomorrow. No school Yeahhhhhh. Then work all night. Boooooo.
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