i wana cut myself nd just let it bleed...
Well me nd Jonathon r over for good
my parents found out bout him always drinking nd doing pot omg nd i find out that he has been lying to me! he told me that he only did pot once in the time we were going out nd i come to find out that he has done it almost every fucking day! im so sick of this shit! nd then when i did tell him b4 we ever went out that i was 15 nd he told Jamie -Lex's brother- that i was 16 going to b 17 grrrr but im really lykin Jamie now cuz he stood up for me nd lyke thats great cuz Jonathon is nothing but a crackhead nd a good kisser but thats besides the point lol but omg im sooo fucking pissed off nd upset y do i ALWAYS fall for these kind of boys!? the only "good" guys that i ever felt for was Caleb Taylor nd Jerry Becker but Jerry is/was an ass saying shit lyke im going to end up as a teen mother at the age of 16 nd that im a whore the town whore for that matter nd that im such a fucking slut omg!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrr nd lyke Caleb is a really great guy but he never lyked me lyke i lyked him nd it just hurts so fucking much! i just want to do sumthing but i cant........
anyway.... i hanged out with Jena today after i broke up with Jonathon nd i talked to Amanda nd Lex nd i texted Ron on his cell but hes being Ron----god damn! every single guy i lyke doenst lyke me back--uses me---or is just plan old grrr----nd it just really hurts right now cuz im now finding out that Jonathon might have just been using me for sex or sumthing nd grrrrr
ttyl
xO
Susan
the lonely one again...nd Broken
my parents found out bout him always drinking nd doing pot omg nd i find out that he has been lying to me! he told me that he only did pot once in the time we were going out nd i come to find out that he has done it almost every fucking day! im so sick of this shit! nd then when i did tell him b4 we ever went out that i was 15 nd he told Jamie -Lex's brother- that i was 16 going to b 17 grrrr but im really lykin Jamie now cuz he stood up for me nd lyke thats great cuz Jonathon is nothing but a crackhead nd a good kisser but thats besides the point lol but omg im sooo fucking pissed off nd upset y do i ALWAYS fall for these kind of boys!? the only "good" guys that i ever felt for was Caleb Taylor nd Jerry Becker but Jerry is/was an ass saying shit lyke im going to end up as a teen mother at the age of 16 nd that im a whore the town whore for that matter nd that im such a fucking slut omg!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrr nd lyke Caleb is a really great guy but he never lyked me lyke i lyked him nd it just hurts so fucking much! i just want to do sumthing but i cant........
anyway.... i hanged out with Jena today after i broke up with Jonathon nd i talked to Amanda nd Lex nd i texted Ron on his cell but hes being Ron----god damn! every single guy i lyke doenst lyke me back--uses me---or is just plan old grrr----nd it just really hurts right now cuz im now finding out that Jonathon might have just been using me for sex or sumthing nd grrrrr
ttyl
xO
Susan
the lonely one again...nd Broken