will you come home and stop this pain tonight?

[xxunclestevexx]

so it hasn't even been two days since heather left and it's already the hardest things i've had to do. first of all i hate good-byes, i especially hate good-byes at airports, and i really hated the fact that i was saying good-bye to the girl that means the world to me. i knew from the beginning that this was the way it was going to be and i wouldn't have changed a thing, 4 months away from you is an easy substitute for not getting to know her and fall in love with her. the best way i can describe it is, picture something that you see everyday and you expect to see it every day that follows, then one day picture that thing not being there and you know it's not going to be there for a long time... that kinda sums it up i guess. she's in a hotel now by herself and she has to stay there for the next 10 days and it makes me feel awful that there's nothing i can do about it. i would give anything for one more night, one more kiss. now i can only look forward to the future and school and hopefully get my life on track while she's gone. need to keep working out and losing weight. need to get some more school under my belt. find a high paying less stressful bullshit job. spend time with my friends and family. keep myself occupied and my mind off things. i love the fact that i can still talk to her everyday and see how her days are going, but that's going to be short lived... 10 more days to be exact. i guess i'm done for now...

me and kyle went to foxwoods yesterday and i won $500.. not bad. lucky dog collartag.(i'm an idiot)

I LOVE YOU! <3