BLAH
So I'm drunk. And high. I would just like to clear that up before I say anything.
I don't remember the last thing I put on here, but if I said I liked my job I don't really anymore. They are being bitches to me now. I want to quit.
I'm in a play!! It's called "The Man Who Came to Dinner" and it has a hot guy in it and I feel like a little girl because I have a crush on him already :/
Hey - I thought we hit it off at callbacks, okay?
So. that's cool.
I feel proud in myself that I have been able to control myself for this long as far as guys go. I REFUSE to hook up before I get to know them. But I don't know if this has given the impression that I don't like someone or that I'm not interested in them! I hope some guy will understand that I want a relationship and a connection that isn't superficial this time or else I'm going to feel cheapened in some way like I always used to. I really hope so. Because I get soo tempted to break that promise with myself. And I don't know how much longer I can keep it up just to prove a principal I've only applied to myself within the past year. And it's starting to seem like it doesn't matter if you want one or not, even if you hook up with someone you barely know, they can still end up your boyfriend like with Jon so it's just like WTF am I supposed to DO?? I can't tell which guys are for real and which ones don't give a shit.
Sharon Olds is one of my new favorite poets.
I'm glad my intermediate poetry class seems good so far.
I had to see someone this evening that I didn't want to see. It helped me remember why I don't like her or hang out with her anymore.
I'll have to admit i'm upset about the cabaret cast list. Even though I resigned to not doing that show. I would have been the perfect sally bowles.
I don't remember the last thing I put on here, but if I said I liked my job I don't really anymore. They are being bitches to me now. I want to quit.
I'm in a play!! It's called "The Man Who Came to Dinner" and it has a hot guy in it and I feel like a little girl because I have a crush on him already :/
Hey - I thought we hit it off at callbacks, okay?
So. that's cool.
I feel proud in myself that I have been able to control myself for this long as far as guys go. I REFUSE to hook up before I get to know them. But I don't know if this has given the impression that I don't like someone or that I'm not interested in them! I hope some guy will understand that I want a relationship and a connection that isn't superficial this time or else I'm going to feel cheapened in some way like I always used to. I really hope so. Because I get soo tempted to break that promise with myself. And I don't know how much longer I can keep it up just to prove a principal I've only applied to myself within the past year. And it's starting to seem like it doesn't matter if you want one or not, even if you hook up with someone you barely know, they can still end up your boyfriend like with Jon so it's just like WTF am I supposed to DO?? I can't tell which guys are for real and which ones don't give a shit.
Sharon Olds is one of my new favorite poets.
I'm glad my intermediate poetry class seems good so far.
I had to see someone this evening that I didn't want to see. It helped me remember why I don't like her or hang out with her anymore.
I'll have to admit i'm upset about the cabaret cast list. Even though I resigned to not doing that show. I would have been the perfect sally bowles.