so many things on my mind lately
+our van is messed up AGAIN.... we are going to get it to the shop tomorrow. we can still drive it, but when it's in idle or going any slower than 20 mph it sputters and sometimes just shuts off. i am scared to even get behind the wheel!
+my weight is really bothering me lately. well, not my weight exactly the poundage is not a problem, but i hate my body. I know what i need to do to make it better, but i don't feel motivated. the fact that i can't stand my body should motivate me, but instead it just depresses me. If we can ever get the van to work for more than a week or so at a time, i will make use of that free week pass for the Y that Amy gave me.
+this last thing is hard to explain. I am kind of a social person, but sometimes i get ultra shy. I see so many people at church hanging out with each other and making plans. I want to know them better too, but i am not sure how to go about it. These people are all really nice and approachable people, yet I am kinda scared they wont like me when we hang out. like i am not good enough. That isn't anything they put out either, they are just the nicest, most down to earth people; I just guess i don't feel worthy.
+my weight is really bothering me lately. well, not my weight exactly the poundage is not a problem, but i hate my body. I know what i need to do to make it better, but i don't feel motivated. the fact that i can't stand my body should motivate me, but instead it just depresses me. If we can ever get the van to work for more than a week or so at a time, i will make use of that free week pass for the Y that Amy gave me.
+this last thing is hard to explain. I am kind of a social person, but sometimes i get ultra shy. I see so many people at church hanging out with each other and making plans. I want to know them better too, but i am not sure how to go about it. These people are all really nice and approachable people, yet I am kinda scared they wont like me when we hang out. like i am not good enough. That isn't anything they put out either, they are just the nicest, most down to earth people; I just guess i don't feel worthy.