I Found a Goddamn Doctor.
Aren't hospital trips fun??? I went to the doctor yesterday to find out why I threw up blood.... and he told me the only way to find out for sure is to go get a scope shoved down my throat. Here goes my sarcastic happiness... yay.
He said... "It's no big deal, really. All they do is give you an anesthetic to make you fall asleep, and then they put a pencil-sized tube down your throat with a camera on the end of it, and before you know it, you're awake, and it's all over with." *sigh* None of that appeals to me. I am actually -extremely- scared. I do wish Billy were here for me right now, however, if it weren't for him, I probably wouldn't even know about this problem.... So anyway, at the end of the week, I have to pay two thousand dollars to have this procedure done. My doctor thinks it's probably an ulcer. He said if that is what it is, then it can be treated with medication and it will go away. So that's good...
I felt like shit at work today. I haven't eaten anything in 3 days. Not that I haven't wanted to, it's just that I can't. Every time I try, I puke. On the bright side, I've lost 15 pounds. ^_^ Just kidding. That's not nessisarily a good thing considering how I lost that much. But anyway... I think I'm finally starting to get an appetite, so I'm gonna try and eat something tomorrow.
I've cut way back on smoking. I think i'm finally going to be able to quit this time. ^_^
I got to go get new clothes today, too. I know loosing weight by not eating is not good, but since I lost so much, I'm going to keep it off. My dad and I are gonna start jogging again.
My parents are also going to help me get into my own apartment. ^_^ I'm so excited. They are proud of me for keeping my shit together. They know I'm trying really hard.
And I figured up today, that if things keep going the way they are, I'll be able to get back in school by the middle of next year at the latest. ^_^ I'm so excited!
You know they say with every up, there is a down... but in order for that to work... with every down there is an up. I'm glad he is getting to concentrate on himself.. and now so am I. And I can't say I dislike it one bit. xD
That's all for now. I'll post more later.
~Krista
He said... "It's no big deal, really. All they do is give you an anesthetic to make you fall asleep, and then they put a pencil-sized tube down your throat with a camera on the end of it, and before you know it, you're awake, and it's all over with." *sigh* None of that appeals to me. I am actually -extremely- scared. I do wish Billy were here for me right now, however, if it weren't for him, I probably wouldn't even know about this problem.... So anyway, at the end of the week, I have to pay two thousand dollars to have this procedure done. My doctor thinks it's probably an ulcer. He said if that is what it is, then it can be treated with medication and it will go away. So that's good...
I felt like shit at work today. I haven't eaten anything in 3 days. Not that I haven't wanted to, it's just that I can't. Every time I try, I puke. On the bright side, I've lost 15 pounds. ^_^ Just kidding. That's not nessisarily a good thing considering how I lost that much. But anyway... I think I'm finally starting to get an appetite, so I'm gonna try and eat something tomorrow.
I've cut way back on smoking. I think i'm finally going to be able to quit this time. ^_^
I got to go get new clothes today, too. I know loosing weight by not eating is not good, but since I lost so much, I'm going to keep it off. My dad and I are gonna start jogging again.
My parents are also going to help me get into my own apartment. ^_^ I'm so excited. They are proud of me for keeping my shit together. They know I'm trying really hard.
And I figured up today, that if things keep going the way they are, I'll be able to get back in school by the middle of next year at the latest. ^_^ I'm so excited!
You know they say with every up, there is a down... but in order for that to work... with every down there is an up. I'm glad he is getting to concentrate on himself.. and now so am I. And I can't say I dislike it one bit. xD
That's all for now. I'll post more later.
~Krista